3 more hours :(

3 more hours of sleep left yet I am here.. Cuz I can't fall asleep..
And I am thinking the reason is because I am too angry >:(
I was looking forward to today since last week.. But.. Things just don't go my way yea?
Today its not about my point of view of anything.. Its just me, myself and I.. Its just about my life.. Complaints and unhappiness.. A life thats not interesting for you to care about..

Pretty pissed off at the class work and everything just don't seem to go well ! :( After today I feel that I should just shut up, stop talking and giving any ideas.. ya, I should just say I cannot make it then you won't feel pekcek and upset isn't it.? I shouldn't even give up my time to go.. Ya, its me that wanna go, its not you guys that want me to go isn't it.? I go or don't go also the same what.. Its becoming a habit.. If I can make time for people, I will do it, no complaints no nothing.. I don't expect any gratefulness but you don't criticise me ok.? Hey, Idk if I am taking things too seriously or what.. But, I have feelings too okay.? It sucks when my close friends just doubt me like nobody business.. Dejecting, demoralising and hurting.. Ok lor, my taste for shows sucks, my taste for guys sucks, my taste for books sucks, my taste for food sucks, my taste for games sucks, my taste for clothing sucks, my taste for everything sucks, my skills for everything sucks ok?! Happy?! My choice of words sucks, my ideas sucks, the activities I like sucks, the music I like sucks, the places I go to sucks.. Everything about me just sucks ok?! OKAY?! Whatever you do and have is the best la ok?! You make the best decision and you have the best taste.. I shouldnt give my opinion to anything anymore cuz my opinion won't even be taken into account.. "Aiya, shiman say one cannot be trusted, shiman do one cannot be trusted" Yeah, I guess I just cannot be trusted.. Cuz everything about me is so lousy, lousy beyond words.. I should give up, give up trying to find pple to do the things I like with me.. Cuz nobody likes them..

Idw this anger to win and overwhelm me..
I want to tell myself you don't mean it and everything.. but I just cant..
Not once, not twice, but its so frigging obvious about your attitude towards me..
ya, ppl tickle me I get scared and I fidget is my fault.. yah my fault. I am the one thats childish. Ok can, you damn mature, you damn fucking mature. yeah right. -.- & how you criticise on ppl's dressing, please look at yourself first.. I cannot stand it anymore.. You wear that.. It doesn't even look legit ok -.- Damn and I realise I talk rubbish when I am tired.. When I go gaga, I make ppl angry too.. Daphne got angry with me on whatsapp ytd... Sigh.. ya, cuz I talk rubbish when Im tired, hungry.. Rant and rant and rant.. I needa sleep :(

And to someone, ‎"I am not the one you want right now and maybe I never will be. Of course it hurts to think of it this way but there is no use pretending otherwise. Whatever happens, I just hope you will find someone who makes you smile every day. Someone who will challenge you to be a better person, someone who will open your heart and your mind and your eyes, someone who will deserve you and everything that you are." I pity you a lot cuz you don't know your worth.. Or maybe you think too highly of others.. Ask yourself, are you really a better person now? I don't think so my dear >_<

PS: I REALLY DON'T KNOW WTF YOU PEOPLE HAVE IN YOUR F-ING MINDS.