Complains

So my previous draft just got deleted, just perfect!
So I guess it is not meant to be posted then..

Yes, like the title, i am full of complains now.
I don't want to start work in the law firm, 9-6 all day everyday, it sucks.
I don't really want to go out just to have meals with people.
I don't really want to plan an overseas trip with so much invisible pressure.
I hate my cgpa. I hate my weight. I hate my skin.

yes, so I am generally not very happy w life now, people need to stop pissing me off.
(who am i kidding, i will never be happy with life.)


fantasies, fictions, they are just the perfect escape for me from this reality.

feeling rather disorientated, i hate studying, i hate working, i really dk what to do w myself.
but life is such, and I am trying hard to accept what they call life and live like what life is supposed to be like. but no, this is not what i want, and i can never do what i want.

PS: yes people always tell you to do what you want to do what you want, be yourself. omg fuck them all, smlj seriously. biggest lie. yeah right, do what you like, can i sleep all day and get paid? NO. can the cleaner of the void deck just quite the job? NO. can the construction worker just get on a plane back to his hometown? NO. we can't even say what we want, let alone do what we want. (Miley Cyrus' "We Can't Stop" is just all wrong) Nothing is ever going to seem right to me, cuz even my thinking is wrong isn't it? :(