Courage

I want to have hope, to have hope in this world that it could be meaningful.

I need to have courage to face all the challenges and unhappiness ahead.

I need the strength to wait and persevere on till something good comes along.

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Exam period never felt so real.

I disappointed myself for OB already~ (How could I get that simple question wrong?!)

I do not want to disappoint myself for BA2!!

But as my dislike for BA never dies, my procrastination never stops!

Argh, sometimes I really hate myself for not being responsible enough for my own studies!

Accounting, please be nice to me when I wake up tomorrow, I promise to embrace you for 3 more days~ /: (Even though I want to puke typing this, I guess it kind of motivates me ba?) 

PS: 快乐炼成泪水 是一种勇敢 － 我没有想要勇敢，却被逼的不得不勇敢 :< I've never want to be strong, I just wanted to be free. If I can only choose between being free and being dependent, I really don't know how to choose right now. But for now, I will just stick to being free cuz I don't see anyone that I can rely on totally~ (:

I see kindness in everyone, that's me. Easily forgotten, that's me too. Loving everyone, that's also me. Always putting others' convenience in front of mine, that's still me. I don't think I love myself a lot, or maybe I love myself too much? I feel okay as long as people are happy that's why I am happy to make them happy!

& to a girl who always think that she is evil and all, didn't you see my vday card to you babe? I see that huge lump of kindness in you. Volunteer work and all that, you always sounds sarcastic and all, but I know you are really a kind girl at heart, I will always believe in that kind soul of yours <3 Please be happy, and stop saying that you are evil <3

CNY'2013

GONG XI FA CAI EVERYONE ^^

With Mum <3

Reunion dinner with Grnadma (:

Bro 

Gang :D

Yu Zheng

Bryan

YY's for Buffet !!! ^^

WAR!!!! 

Post-war hair condition :p

Basically all of the above sums up my Chinese New Year this year.??
Cny is a period for me to visit long lost relatives, mini catch up with cousins and all (:
Its going to end, I am really sad about this :(
Haven't even play mahjoong with friends~

For this year, its definitely a catch up with my QQ.QT PIE Jovie Chan Xuan Qi ! :D
Yes, she might look so cute in all these photos, but she is really annoying real life ok?!
Yeah, she love to take pictures, especially using Action Cam (-____-)
So many unglams of me got deleted by me already HAHAHA
And she talks like a 6 year old when she is just 4 ! Noisy daoooo~!
But still, her random hugs and kisses cheers me up a lot ^^

Visiting at Cass' house was awesome as ever (: Thanks for your warm welcome!
Her Mom really prepared lots and lots of food for us!
& her dad bought lots of lots of beers! (Although I don't really like, but still ! )
Lou hei, shaving yuzheng's and bryan's hair, "sending them off" for army and all ~
We have grown up really ~ From staying back in school to mug for o levels, to A levels and now NS. While they are in NS, poly students will be facing FYP and interns~ How things change? But change is inevitable definitely (:
朋友不是先来的人或者认识最久的人，而是那个来了以后再也没有走的人。

Ok, how did a happy cny post became so emotional (TT) Nahhhh ~!!!

Haha continue! Buffet at YY's house was awesomeeee !
Thank you YY for the delicious food !!! :D
It was really an enjoyable day~!! It was really great to have you people in my life although you guys always make fun of me and bully me! I am glad (:

On a side note, I truly believe that it is important to be independent but not alone.

这世界的风霜雨雪太大。心一旦被打湿了，受潮了，只有自己把它搬到阳光底下去晒，才能寻找到温暖，才能不让它发霉，才能把角落深处的那个阴影驱逐。因为，他人的施舍总是那样不可靠和不稳当。 @ChineseLQuotes 26 01 13 4:38 PM

Stress Management

A psychologist walked around a room while teaching stress management to an audience. As she raised a glass of water, everyone expected they'd be asked the "half empty or half full" question. Instead, with a smile on her face, she inquired: "How heavy is this glass of water?"

Answers called out ranged from 8 oz. to 20 oz.

She replied, "The absolute weight doesn't matter. It depends on how long I hold it. If I hold it for a minute, it's not a problem. If I hold it for an hour, I'll have an ache in my arm. If I hold it for a day, my arm will feel numb and paralyzed. In each case, the weight of the glass doesn't change, but the longer I hold it, the heavier it becomes." She continued, "The stresses and worries in life are like that glass of water. Think about them for a while and nothing happens. Think about them a bit longer and they begin to hurt. And if you think about them all day long, you will feel paralyzed – incapable of doing anything."

It’s important to remember to let go of your stresses. As early in the evening as you can, put all your burdens down. Don't carry them through the evening and into the night. Remember to put the glass down!

PS: Interesting thing i saw on facebook! 不管未来如何，我们的回忆始终不会变～ No matter what is going to happen, how much is going to be changed, our memories will still be kept the same~ So keep the memories, don't worry about the changes!

Law Advocacy 2013

The finalists ^_<

Cupcakes with love <3

Firstly must congrats Chan & Kevin for winning the finals!! (Cupcakes for them!)

They were really good!! :D 

They were so nervous during the trial(?), proud of them ! :D 

And I think that all participants are really brave esp Georgina & Christine!! hehe^^

I wonder if I am that brave /: 

All in all it was a great friday for me ytd <3

From lunch with Nixin & Chris @ Lenas to shopping with Meitong, Linfang & Shaoyan to Advoc to Bus ride with Jessica to woodlands and definitely my night with TheArmyGang at Sam's (:

Ah, drinking at Sam's.. Some guys uh, really drink too fast & too proud to stop drinking! Tsk tsk!

But it was fun chilling and talking crap with them as always (: Can't wait for two more days to go to Cass' and eat those delicious food that her mom cooks and a last celebration before the NS men enter the army (: Time really flies ~

PS: I met someone who meant the world to me and then I realised that the world didn't really mean that much to me..

Wrong ones

Having insomnia for the past two days! So not me seriously!! /:

是否回忆，有时令你嘴角上扬，有时也能让你潸然泪下。Memories. They have the ability to make you smile, but also the power to make your tears roll.

Sometimes I really feel guilty towards certain people. Those that I feel that I don't put enough effort to connect with them and all that. A lot, a lot of them. Putting my effort at the wrong places and at the wrong ones. As always. Hais, shiman ah shiman, why you so lousy?

I miss those times where you treat me well and I treat you well back. You give me your 100% and I give you my best too. But this world shows me that even if you give pple you best, they might give you just part of themselves and that part might not even be real. This is how cruel this scary society is. Ive learnt that for now. Not going to be the stupid one that keeps giving in without assessing what the other party give in exchange anymore. Faith in humanity broken, totally. So what if everybody lies, no one is listening and taking things seriously isn't it.??

多少美好的东西消失和毁灭了，世界还像什么事也没有发生。是的，生活在继续着。可是，生活中的每一个人却在不断地失去自己最珍贵的东西。生活永远是美好的；人的痛苦却时时在发生。——《平凡的世界》

PS: What an irony to always be thinking about the one that you aren't suppose to be thinking about and not caring for those that should be cared for. (Like how I always miss my niece instead of showing my bro more concern? But she is the cutest thing alive and I'm thankful for all the joy that she brought to me ^^) Fuck off the wrong ones /:

Semester 2.2 & updates

Yes, semester 2.2 is coming to an end.

Which means 2/3 of my poly life is going to be over, I am over the moon, yes, I am.

I just want to graduate soon. This sem, is where I put my hard work in. Ok, not really, but better and definitely more compared to the first half of my poly life, I screwed half of it, I am not going to screw it any further for anything or anyone. I know it might seems fruitless trying to pull up the already very low gpa, but for now, my goal is not my gpa, its just responsibility and consistency, I need to buck up, studies and life. Currently quite satisfied with my grades but still disappointed with conveyancing project and company law quizzes! Sigh! Hope the other components can pull me up! Haha, I didn't do badly for accounting and that's what I am most proud of! CUZ ACCOUNTING SUCKS TO THE MAX!!!!

And yeah, I have not been blogging properly! Just random splashes of quotes and thoughts, how could I.?! But I am really too tired to be blogging! But after last thursday, things are getting better. All my submissions submitted and presentations over~ *Relief* (You don't know how happy I am!) Ok, but I am still left with one burden Beijing Opera project for my Understanding Theatre subject :( And oh, there's a test this wednesday. Must do well hor shiman!

& I am really lacking of exercise nowww! In need of them! Haven't been swimming and doing sports :( No time previously but now, its that I am sickkk! Yes, 我生病了！So I cannot do sports :( Arghh.. Anw, Mom bought me a new nike sports shoe to replace my worn out adidas! Yaye! :D I am gonna wear it soon kayz??? Love you mom <3

Ok, finally done uploading photos from my phone to comp, now I can upload them here now and update about the outings I had in 2013 :B

Ok, firstly some pics that I wanted to post but didnt (:

Najiha's birthday at Strictly pancakes with the girls~! 

We haven't meet up since then!! This was in what? December? 

Christmas celebration with my mini santa <3

OK, HERE COMES 2013!

COUNTDOWN CHALET WITH BMT PPL :D

Countdown Chalet~! Featuring Secret Santa! 

Present exchange was awesome ok? <3 it !

Werewolves all night long was also damn mindfucking fun (:

Night cycling, the must! Was damn shiok toooo :D

Can't do without this crazy company, hope there won't be any conflicts!

BRYAN'S BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION (ZOUK)

Surprise! Happy birthday Bryan Wong!

Hope you were surprised! Nah, I know you were! :D

Fish & Co with them & Zouk! (I still don't find love for clubbing, pardon me qinhe)

NANA & FIRLULU'S WEDDING <3

Whose wedding cupcakes are these? Nana's & firdaus!

Happy marriage to them both, best wishes (:

marriage, a topic too far for me to imagine, but yet I can see that it is closer to me than ever these are my friends, yes, I am attending friends' wedding already. Sounds old yeah? But nevertheless I am happy for this tallie and shorty couple. Always so cute :3

The girls <3

The Boys (:

The cutie couple~ My photo with them not yet uploaded /:

NAT, CHINGUAN, QINHE & JIAHAO'S BIRTHDAY! (PRAWNING)

Celebrating the 3 gheys' birthday! (Jiahao didnt come!!)

So glad we all still live in cck, even the photographer was from our ex sch LOL

Prawninggg! I shall talk about the prawning session!

Aww man such cruelty!!! They should provide ice to knock out those poor prawns first!

Arhh, we had to pluck their pincer while they were still alive.. 

And worse! We had to poke satay stick through the live prawns!!! FCUKKK!

I couldn't do it.. Poke halfway, the prawn wriggled and my heart melted... fagg~

I wish I could end its life in a more swag way so that it won't suffer so much :(

PROJECTS SUBMISSION DAY! 

Thanks Georgina for the flower xoxo!

My CDS groupmates! One more submission to go! (:

Melvyn's like an angel here LOL (He is always one la ok?)

My OB groupmates and classmates x 

Through all these times :D

01022013! FIRST FEBRUARY!
So we decided to relax a bit after all the shit ass submissions (:
KISEKI BUFFET! (Which I had for free)

Just realised my eyes are closed ._. But I am lazy to upload the other one now!

Gibson and WeiChiat really look like Sumos! /:

It was a really nice buffet cuz I never had one like this.. Ok maybe cus of my lack of experiences in buffet thus I got a free meal LOL.. But I feel ok.. WC ask you not guilty one meh? hmm, in my mind I was like, were the workers gonna get scolded? NO. Will they lose a lot of money? NO. So, why must I feel guilty? I would rather take the money to donate to charity or treat you guys coffee bean :D

Just a photo during steamboat and before Ah boys to men (:

PS: Self control is vital. And to accept that change is inevitable.

Movie Review: Ah Boys To Men 2

Its been a long time since I did a movie review..

I love movies. Like how I love dramas and reading..

But nowadays, it's really too busy for me to follow a drama and of course reading a book! I know pple will say when there's a will, there's a way and that reading is a good hobby blah blah blah.. But guess what. My mom scolds me every time I start reading a book. Cuz I got no self control at all. I will like on my bed and read the whole day or more than one day.. Skip meals and other stuffs that mother hates. So, I guess if I read during school term, I am bound to skip school.. I never dared to try reading during school term.. haha.. So, movies it shall be (:

So this would be the trailer :

I must say part 2 is better than part 1 definitely !

And I think Noah Yap's acting is better than his videos... Sorweee..

No Spoiler alert ! Cuz all I am going to say is my thoughts ~

I think that this whole movie is really a propaganda like seriously! So, yeah I didn't take the whole army thing very seriously.. But this movie allows me to understand the feeling to enlisting, going into the army, moving on into a new phase of life. How army boys make new buddies in the army, why are they so tired when they book out, why they hate booking in. Its like school life but you can't go home isn't it? This reminds me of Singapore Sports School totally, its just that the sport that you're playing now isn't the sport that you might like. 

Many are touched at the father's scene, how he got stroke and all that, I didn't. Cuz I was just really awed at Richard Low's acting! Pro man! I think I am weird. What touched my heart was actually the marching scene and where Ken the narrator goes on and on about the feelings that army boys felt. That. Walking past scenery and places that held a different meaning in the past, being reminded of all those times before they enter NS, knowing that everything has changed but still remembering.. This kind of "missing" feeling, touched me the most :')

Many of my friends are at this stage of their life, I really hope that they don't forget me.. (haha, i know i am being so ridiculous, army boys afraid of ppl forgetting the but here I am afraid that the army boys will forget pple outside) But is my thought really irrelevant? Imagine they got buddies when they book in, they will have new friends, they are gonna spend their monday to friday with them.. & maybe they will go out tgt during weekends, then where would they place they old friends then? I really dk. A test of friendship once again, I do not dare to hope for much, I really do not. 

I believe that boys should be the one protecting their family and country.

I am supportive of army and hope there will be more singaporeans out there who are willing to fend for their country with pride. Not just sign on cuz you think this is the best offer you can get. There aren't many singaporeans like that sad to say ~ 

For the actors part, I truly salute Ken's father's (Richard Low, 刘谦益).. He is really good.. Lobang is really cheeky and happy go luck character that I like a lot.. And through this movie plus YY I got to know Tosh Rock our local youtuber who acts as Sergeant Ong in the movie. He didn't play a major role, so I shall not comment on anything. But his videos on youtube are not bad? Better than deekosh no matter what.. -.- 

The song he composed for the movie is really cool ! Listen please ! (:

Ah Boys to Men Recruit Anthem !

Oh yah! I watched this movie with my sexy shuttlers! ;)

Days like this :(

MOODLESS. SPEECHLESS. NOTHINGNESS.

舍不得是人最大的弱点，也是最真的善良。
有多不舍得，也要选择离开，因为这是我觉得最好的决定，来满足你所要的生活。

Days pass and feelings fade, I’m wondering if you regret that decision you made.
I. Never. Regret.

PS: Time like these. Where I am suppose to have no time at all. OB script, learning session, BA tutorial.. Sigh.. I rather I sleep.. Filter out negative thoughts, I've got no time for these craps (: Ok this is really bad.. I should go to bed soon :(

Anw, blogger is pissing the hell out of me, I can't edit my blog like whut ?! They should quickly fix this stupid problem eh !! #bullshit

This.

Sometimes, some things

有时候，故意把自己搞到很忙，为了不让自己胡思乱想～

有些事就算我們再怎麼不情願，也得做。

有些人就算我們再怎麼不喜歡，也得忍 !

This is life, suck it up (Y)

Gone were those days :'(

Only had lecture from 9am to 11am today, but it was a busy day!!

What I did today
- Rehearse conveyancing role play
- Study for conveyancing
- OB tutorial
- UT script done !! :D
- Help Yuzheng book chalet

Taking a short break before I polish my company law project stuffs (:

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Yes, gone were those days where the only thing we do is to enjoy life..

走着走着， 就散了， 回忆都淡了；
看着看着， 就累了， 星光也暗了；
听着听着， 就醒了， 开始埋怨了；
回头发现， 你不见了， 突然我乱了。

从前，已不见，我们能做的，就是向前…… 我和你的故事也到了断点……我们曾经相信的故事，相信彼此会在彼此的身边，一直到永远，永远做好朋友，都没了，没了……虽然很痛，不过我会试着用笑容面对一切（^_^）不是笑一笑，没什么事情过不了吗？呵呵～ 太多人停留在过去，不愿意往前……我嘛，也不就是其中一个？没什么特别的，也没什么希奇的。不管开心或不开心，地球照转，时间照走，没有人会可怜你不是吗？
Heartache, lies, not moving on etc. I am just one of them ^^ Nothing new, nothing special (: #WHATSTHEBIGDEAL :B

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Lastly, Happy birthday JunSu Oppa!!! ^^

Perfect looks & beautiful voice x

MA HANSUM BOY <3

How to be more careful !?

I really detest this blurness of mine! Some people still can tell me 傻人会有傻福！？Mehhhh!!!! Lies lies lies! Being as blur as me will only cause unluckiness! Yeah I am blogging now cuz I took the wrong side of the train at city hall and i have to go one big round before i reach cck.. Arghh!!! Not to even mentioning what happened this week, I forgot my earpiece before I went out today, then I went home to take it. when I board the bus I realised I coincidentally forgot my ez link card too :( do I really need someone else to always be there to remind me what to bring out, check my bag, check my time table? NOOOOOO!!!!!!

Sigh talking about this week. I thought conveyancing starts at 12pm.. So I happily went to have lunch with xx & chris after BA lecture. HOW AWKWARD IT WAS FOR ME TO ENTER I LAW AT 12 WHEN LESSON STARTED AT 11AM! FML LIKE SERIOUSLY!!! /: Like a Joke /:

Cant blame others for laughing at me? Cuz I am a blur sotong that is born to be laughed at? This week is just so... The only good thing is that I passed my BTT (:

PS: Someone please teach me how to be less blur ~ If not i will become smbeyondBLURsky really soooon :(

我真的不想的 :(

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TO DO LIST BY THURSDAY! D:< (I JUST HAVE TO TYPE THIS OUT!)

- Company Law Quiz (Monday 0900)
- Article analysis for OB
- Complete Company Law Task 2
- Finish conveyancing law role play rehearsal
- Study conveyancing law 
- Finish up script for Understanding Theatre
- Rehearse play for UT
- BA tutorial
- OB tutorial 

A Dog x

I want a dog.
I should say, I want a pet.
At times like this, I really wish I can have a pet by my side.
To take care and have fun with it (:

But, the only animal I can imagine taking care of is a dog.
hahaha, bias-ness i know.. XP

But, I know I don't have the time for a dog right now..
I am going to be a bad owner..
If I managed to find a stray dog, yeah I will definitely adopt it..
But to buy a dog rn? Nah.. My mom will slaughter me :(
I love dogs, big ones, small ones, haha especially big ones ^_<

You know, my dream is to have a husky (: hehe ^^

You ran a marathon? 

How heavy was the sled? 

(hehe)

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Been really busy and my mind is in a mess!
3 projects to do over this weekend and company law test on monday :(

No time for this little space of mine?
Might be posting ridiculously short posts /:
I need to jiayou !!! /:

PS: Till I find meaning in this life (:

Don't you love.?

"You think I didn't love him meh?"

Someone said that to me.
No la, you loved him a lot a lot ok? hahaha
But sad to say, sometimes, love is not enough, there are so many factors affecting a relationship. Personality, timing, family, background, future, friends blah blah blah.. Love is overrated to me cuz it really isn't everything.. Don't tell me you can survive on love alone.. Three words: In your dreams. Food, water, air and other basic necessities ? How about that ?

Sometimes love isn't love. Even when two are in love with each other, they cannot be together.

You think its romantic that a girl elope w a guy in dramas? It is just plain childish to me. Someone committing suicide for another, giving up everything for the other party.. You mad bro? There are certain things you must sacrifice, certain things you can choose to give in and some things that you can give up, but, committing suicide when someone doesn't love you like the way you love him/her? Plain stupidity. Many things are part of your life. BGR is just a part of it. Maybe cuz of the time you spend with him/her thats why it feels like a huge part of your life.. But tell me, will you really die if he/she leaves you? Nah, water & food will ensure your survival already..

PS: Let go of what isn't compatible with your life :D

Anw, quick rant of Queen of SOP..
Even though I am kind of attracted to Zhang Han, this person made a really good view of the drama~
http://dramarants.wordpress.com/2012/07/29/the-queen-of-sop-first-impressions-ost/
tadaaaaaaa~!

Hello, my gang (:

Hello, sick girl over here.. Its going to be 4am soon but here I am,  wide awake.. Cuz I napped just now.. Having a long long longgg chat with Mandi now.. But I think she is asleep already? hehe.. Somehow, I am so missing my friends rn /: so.. I shall blog about them !

Najiha's belated birthday surprise (:

Mandi, Joey, Sam, Cass and Najiha had a girl day out in the noon to Strictly Pancakes! (: My virgin trip there and it was okayyy i guess.? But I don't think I will suggest to go there myself.. hahaha, not worth it for the food? It was a good experience nevertheless! Its been so long since I meet them out and chat with them. Its been so long now too since this happened like one month plus ago and I am only blogging about it now.. hahaa.. so sorrryyy :(

Then we had to blindfold Najiha to Swensens! HAD A REALLY HARD TIME LOOKING FOR THE SWENSENS IN ION !!!! >:( It is at such a secluded area LOL

And yeap! Had a great dinner there with the Gang~ So much fun ^^

Love this photo, we look like a heartshape don't you think so? <3

Haha, celebrating christmas in a christmas tree teehee ^^

We look like a family at a wedding dinner no? hehe ^^ 

WE SHOT THROUGH THE FOG (:

(Genting Trip)

Genting trip was really more fun than what I imagined.. Really.. Over my expectations!

Genting is a boring place. Really. Like a mini sentosa with lots of fog.. But they managed to make it so damn fun! We were all really tired before the trip, during the trip and after the trip.. But I appreciate all the fun this group of ppls give to me (: Without them, I guess my life would be definitely less fun x 10000.. Yuzheng & Shukai were really such gentlemen ^^ Good roommates to bunk in with ! I want to thank them for being so understanding to girls' needs.. The amount of time Sam and me hogged the toilet.. They were so understanding.. They even went to the other guys' rooms to have their shower.. Thanks guys! 

And Sam, I am glad you "pressured" me to come for this trip <: And I am super happy that you took the space shot ! LIKE SUPER! I don't know how to express my satisfaction when you decided to take the space shot with me! haha, I know to me all those rides seems pretty pointless cuz I am not afraid of rides. I know its a big try-out for you and I am glad you did it with me! :D hahas, super happy you know? Even though I didn't show it out <:

But there are also moments that I was quite pissed during this trip.. MEAL TIMES :( Arghh.. I would rather eat separately.. Yeah, we did eat separately.. Its too much a chore to find places that can fit 16 of us.. Yeah, that is practically the only downside in this trip /:

Bowling session was awesome thanks to the luminous alley~! So much fun ^^

Karaoke sessions were not bad too.. considering 16 ppl, 2 mics.. haha, I'd love to hear Malcolm rap again! Like a black rapper really! DAEBAKK! 

Pub session. To bring yuzheng to drink! LOL! Martell with mixer! weehoo! The place was too noisy for us to talk properly.. so.. it was alright I guess.. 

YOLO-ED? I guess everyone did their yolo stuffs there except me.. Haha, I still don't find the challenge for me in genting or in life .. 

So thankful for them to be in my life & to take up my time :D

2 years after graduation.. How many two years will there be in the future? :O

PS: Indeed. There will be problems between friends, but if everyone is willing to put in effort, this friendship thing might just work out (: 

Anw mandi is really asleep, goodnight ! Time for me to head to bed too ! :O 

2013

Today did not feel like 2013 totally.
I am feeling so lost now.
I actually dread this new year so much.

Dreading the start of school.
Dreading attachment.
Dreading the NS enrollment of the JC guys.
Dreading the changes that will be coming.
Dreading the changes I have to make.
Dreading the responsibilities that I have to shoulder.
And lastly, dreading another year of mind-fucks.

Nothing much to look forward to, 2013 better be good /:

PS: 如果我真的很成熟，就不会那么痛苦了。If I really am mature, I wouldn't be so miserable.

Merry Xmas & Happy New Year (:

Blog is really outdated with my events and everything.
Been really busy this holiday. (Partly because this holiday is way too short)
Worked for straight 7 days.

Being alone at home never felt so good. And today's break comes with me ditching work this morning. Down with flu still.. I need to get better so that I can have fun (supposedly) at the countdown chalet. Things have not been going really well this holiday. FML & WTF flying through  my mind almost every single day.. so.. generally, still unhappy.. Sigh.. Nothing can cheer me up actually, nothing.

This post is to end this year. I suppose this would be the last post of the year, cuz I really have no time to blog. I havent even update Najiha's birthday celebration pictures lehh /:

To summarise things:

30112012
The celebration of Najiha's birthday. Spent the noon at Strictly pancakes with the girls (: Joey, Mandi, Sam, Cass & of course Najiha (: Then the night at swensens ion plus the guys !! (:

12122012
121212! Its my test day on OB! But Chirs & me went to catch SM TOWN LIVE IN TOKYO 3D in the theatre at tampines! hehe ^^ Love TVXQ <3 Of course all the artists too ~ Like Shinee, BoA~

14122012
Seoul Garden with classmates to celebrate Agatha's birthday ^^
Then Play Nation with badminton ppl ! KINECT WAS GOOD~! Muscle aching like mad the next dayy...  Then they had sakae sushi buffet while Daphne & me watch only cuz I was still full from seoul garden.. After that pool at timah for awhile, then HOMEEE

15122012
A werewolf boy with xiaoxin, nixin & christine <3
This movie is good (: The three girls cried like mad :'( Their poor jongki :(

Then Astons with team (: Nice food (:

Then I spent the night at Clarke Quay with Meitong & AhMei ! <3 Sweetest ! In love with Martell with mixtures hahahaha <3

16122012
Family day~ Watched the Hotel Transylvania with Ting (: Such a cute movie (:

17122012 - 19122012
Genting Baby (:
Genting trip with the gang. What more can I say? I enjoyed the trip a lot, even though the lack of sleep was killing me on the inside >:( Thanks Jingpeng for planning the trip and treating first day karaoke ^^ Thanks Swine for treating 2nd day karaoke! Happy! :D

22122012
Chinese Zodiac 12 with Sixian & Weiling ! :D
JACKKY CHANNN~! WUUUU HAAA!

23122012
Xmas celebration at xiaoyee's house <3
Family love (: Hehe, I realise how long i've not seen Jovie, she've grown so much (: Sorry bbg, I also dk why am I so busy nowadays :( Imy a lot de ok? Don't blame yiyi :( & thanks my aunts and cousin for the xmas prezzies! Its the thought that counts <3

I guess these are the outings that I remember..
I know this post is really boring.. But I guess its just to help me remember some friends, some events and some memories (: Cuz even when people go, memories and feelings still remains :*
Everything is gonna be alright :3

PS: 希望能找到活下去的理由～

One year

What was I doing this time, last year?

Oh, I remembered..

Oh, I love that memory..

Oh, I am just gonna keep it with me.. Forever..

Because #YOLO,

because I gave so much to make her happy,

because I won't have the chance to do it again,

because nothing will be the same again,

because I choose to be negative now,

because I chose to walk this path alone,

because I decide on avoidance and depression and,

because I don't know anything anymore..

PS: 与其说我不想见到你，不如说是我不知道该怎么面对你 :(

Blackalogy Nothing hurts more than being disappointed by the single person you thought would never hurt you. 12 12 12 2:29 PM

12.12.12

A date to remember,
but not a day to remember.

Day by day,
week by week,
month by month,
maybe even year by year?

PS: This is the worst, neither heaven nor hell.. /:

I love you with an I love you

Sometimes we can't treat others the way way they treat us.. And sometimes we just cannot reply an iloveyou with an iloveyou /:

Nth is going into my head now thats why i'm here /: Hope Dad is reaching soon so that I can go home. Sitting down here at hollandv's coffee bean, with rows of bars on my right blasting party musics, I... am... so... jealous of pple who are not having exams now !!! This is a place full of fun, joy, laughter, peace, anger & tears |: Oh how I miss those days? Haha.. Having a little hope that I will wake up one day with everything remaining the same? Wishful thinking me /: As if time will rewind.?! /: Things aren't ever gonna be the same again.. haha dkdc (:

Yeah. & Ive got to wrap up november on my blog !!! Anw JIAYOU TO MYSELF FOR ONE MORE WEEK :D

PS: Just because you can’t understand something, it doesn’t mean it’s wrong. –Arthur (The Sword in the Stone)

3 more hours :(

3 more hours of sleep left yet I am here.. Cuz I can't fall asleep..
And I am thinking the reason is because I am too angry >:(
I was looking forward to today since last week.. But.. Things just don't go my way yea?
Today its not about my point of view of anything.. Its just me, myself and I.. Its just about my life.. Complaints and unhappiness.. A life thats not interesting for you to care about..

Pretty pissed off at the class work and everything just don't seem to go well ! :( After today I feel that I should just shut up, stop talking and giving any ideas.. ya, I should just say I cannot make it then you won't feel pekcek and upset isn't it.? I shouldn't even give up my time to go.. Ya, its me that wanna go, its not you guys that want me to go isn't it.? I go or don't go also the same what.. Its becoming a habit.. If I can make time for people, I will do it, no complaints no nothing.. I don't expect any gratefulness but you don't criticise me ok.? Hey, Idk if I am taking things too seriously or what.. But, I have feelings too okay.? It sucks when my close friends just doubt me like nobody business.. Dejecting, demoralising and hurting.. Ok lor, my taste for shows sucks, my taste for guys sucks, my taste for books sucks, my taste for food sucks, my taste for games sucks, my taste for clothing sucks, my taste for everything sucks, my skills for everything sucks ok?! Happy?! My choice of words sucks, my ideas sucks, the activities I like sucks, the music I like sucks, the places I go to sucks.. Everything about me just sucks ok?! OKAY?! Whatever you do and have is the best la ok?! You make the best decision and you have the best taste.. I shouldnt give my opinion to anything anymore cuz my opinion won't even be taken into account.. "Aiya, shiman say one cannot be trusted, shiman do one cannot be trusted" Yeah, I guess I just cannot be trusted.. Cuz everything about me is so lousy, lousy beyond words.. I should give up, give up trying to find pple to do the things I like with me.. Cuz nobody likes them..

Idw this anger to win and overwhelm me..
I want to tell myself you don't mean it and everything.. but I just cant..
Not once, not twice, but its so frigging obvious about your attitude towards me..
ya, ppl tickle me I get scared and I fidget is my fault.. yah my fault. I am the one thats childish. Ok can, you damn mature, you damn fucking mature. yeah right. -.- & how you criticise on ppl's dressing, please look at yourself first.. I cannot stand it anymore.. You wear that.. It doesn't even look legit ok -.- Damn and I realise I talk rubbish when I am tired.. When I go gaga, I make ppl angry too.. Daphne got angry with me on whatsapp ytd... Sigh.. ya, cuz I talk rubbish when Im tired, hungry.. Rant and rant and rant.. I needa sleep :(

And to someone, ‎"I am not the one you want right now and maybe I never will be. Of course it hurts to think of it this way but there is no use pretending otherwise. Whatever happens, I just hope you will find someone who makes you smile every day. Someone who will challenge you to be a better person, someone who will open your heart and your mind and your eyes, someone who will deserve you and everything that you are." I pity you a lot cuz you don't know your worth.. Or maybe you think too highly of others.. Ask yourself, are you really a better person now? I don't think so my dear >_<

PS: I REALLY DON'T KNOW WTF YOU PEOPLE HAVE IN YOUR F-ING MINDS.