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Transformation of Vernesa Wong Chu Qian since I met her..

Hehehehhee ^^

Why you always cheat my feelings?!

hahaha, nah, actually i really love all her wigs ! 

& its hard to find someone who likes make-up here ! (:

Specially for you..

I wanted to make a collage.. But idk how, will you enlighten me then? :B

TADAAAAAAAAA!

She was straight hair, then she has curly hair, then she became a blonde, then she gt bangs, then she became pink then she "cut" her hair, then she have long hair again?!?! :D

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Haha, anw my bangs is long again..

Sooo.. I clipped up my hair today....

& It's kinda...... NERD.....

Tears that flows in two directions

Yesterday was a wonderful day except that I was so tired after Midnight on Friday :(
You girls dk how much i miss youuu ! <3
Yes ! Finally a real meet up with the other 4 girls !
I guess we are all ladies now.. bwahahaha !
So we went wendy's.. I was quite full so i had a chilli & cheese potato only~
Not bad not bad, YUM YUM !
Anw, the main thing is not the food. It's the ladies !
haha, I really had a great time wasting time with them.. Oh yah.. Waste time.. We really wasting time.. Just chatting around & laughing at ppl falling down at the ice-skating rink ! XP
But, who cares? I had a great time ! XDDD
xoxo my lovelies ! :D

With le old woman (:

Ok, she ranting at this caption now, but IDC ! :3

See the cute mini mirror Mandi's holding? Happy belated <3

Effect on effect ! So neoprint siah :O xoxo!

With the Maria ! (:

With Mandi !! so long no see her yoo! XOXO!

All the 5s polaroids ! <3 (hehe poor Marbleslab's girl helping us to take :O)

Before we part (T_T)

Yeah, we spammed loads of polaroids that day..

Like 20-30 films used.. The big ones & the small ones ^^

hehe, thanks Najiha & Samantha for the films ! <3

It was rather relief & heartwarming to see them..

& this was the first meet up that all five of us went..

Everytime someone would be busy/missing..

So, i hope there is going to be more of this really !

They make me feel normal. I am serious. Thanks girls :-*

I almost wanna cry when i gonna leave them ! hahaha !

All these unfeeling girls will think im crazy after reading this i tell you!

But yah, w these ppl in my life, no matter how screwed things are, i need to be strong, to face how they gonna suan me & my stupid actions :x hehehehe ~

xoxo, all the best in A levels girls ! Do your best, try try try !

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This July, this friend, officially? (hmm dk what word to use) left me. 

Left my life.. Then, I am letting another one off.. Ohmy what is wrong w me !

I've got no choice really !

Hey, I just met you & this is crazy, so I am not going to choose you!

hahaha, this is crazy really ! One month is not enough to break a friendship of one year, i say.

So...... Yah, i will trust who i wanna trust ! Maybe I am wrong, but maybe you're wrong too?

And you just prove to me once & once again not to believe your words.. chey !

As a friend, I tried my best to help ! Until I think I am embarrassing myself already you know?

为什么我需要拿自己的热脸贴你的冷屁股？没必要了吧？

要做朋友就做好来啦！什么都不懂，什么都不管，算什么？

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I don't cry doesn't means I have no feelings.

Fuck you for saying that okay.?! Yes, I am frigging pissed off when you said that to me.

If I have no feelings, why would I even care for you !!

& you as my good friend (Ok, idk if I am treated mutually), should know the best I don't cry easily.

Or rather, I cry at different kinds of things from others.

In front of you I guessed I only cried once? At genting? When I lost my phone, cuz I felt so guilty towards my dad & you for losing the photos?

Yah, so... Other things, I don't cry cus I put up a strong front. 

My tears flows backwards instead of flowing out so others wont see them and say that im weak.

If you don't know how much i was hurt, don't even judge ok.? For all you may know, i might be dying inside but I just dk how to say it out..

You asked me not to cry, you gave me the courage to stop those tears when they were about to fall. & now you say im heartless for not crying.. wtf seriously? wtf? Now you are the one that make me cry.

I know you are in a bad mood. I know you have your own problems. All I can say is, make a decision. Stop wavering in the middle of nowhere.. Uds what you want & get it okay? 

PS: Hate myself for being so naive & immature. I wish I myself could be more responsible & sort things out on my own, do my own things. How am I gonna survive without help? I am freaking noob! Argh! I think i am a disappointment to my mom.. I feel bad really.. But I am not helping! Seriously shiman, grow up??? Stop being so childish. Someone give me one tight slap to wake me up please? :( 

不是我想要的~

Not what I wanted...
I never want us to be like this..
But it seems like I have no choice now isn't it .?? You don't agree with my choice/decision.. Idk how to make you understand too.. So must we really go our separate ways now.?? Friends no more.?? yalah yalah.. you always say i got a lot of friends.. But sigh.. I really zhen xin de ba ni dang peng you.. its my fault to think i can just bomb everything to you without thinking of the consequences.. Now i guess i will have to pay for it.. You ignoring me, you giving me cold shoulders, you diao-ing me, you being sarcastic. I guess thats all part of us now.. Idk what to do to salvage this friendship anymore... I tried my best. I really tried. This is my max limit alr... Sorry that i disappoint you, i am not up to your standard. i am not fit to be your friend bah... T_T

PS: I finally have some balls to confront you.. thanks for replying halfway again lor? But at least now i kinda know what is going on. At least i don't feel like a stupid fool now ! But you still left me a lot of unanswered questions. Do not blame me when i fire them at you !

Crumbling

My world is crumbling..
My world is collapsing..
Unlike yours..
Don't compare..
What we are experiencing should be totally different..

you've got that someone still..
I have none. Totally busted..

& this friend have to disagree with me at this point of time..
You don't know how much i want you to agree with me ! Its not as long as i am happy ! Idw you to be unhappy w me too ! You're of great importance to me! (dk if u believe or not since you think that i'm a selfish bitch who thinks of myself only). I really hope that you can understand my decision and choice. I'm not thinking only about myself. i'm thinking for them too. & tell me, why are we quarreling cuz of them? i don't even get it now. I just want everything to be back to normal.. is it wrong to think this way? Its definitely an act of foolishness. Cannot be forgiven? Idk. I always aim to forgive ppl. do my best in forgiving since forgetting is always the hardest. So if forgetting is so hard even for a stm girl like me, its even harder for others isn't it.? why not do my best to let them have as little quarrels as possible.?

A wise man once said: be careful with words.. cuz once theyre said, they can only be forgiven but not forgotten.
For me, actions likewise. i choose to forgive. & i need your support. idw to lose someone in this manner.. :(

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PS: Will you tell me what in the world is happening.??? :(

Desires filled (:

Posting about all the events once again ! <3

Hope you people aren't bored with my life !

1. Amazing Spiderman (29062012)

with my amazing shuttlers <3 @ Lot One (:
Half of us are in poly/jc/ite. Not in sec sch anymore.. Whenever we meet for movie tho, its still in CCK. Our new friends will be like, WHAT?! Why you watch at such ulu ulu place?! Why are yall watching at such a lousy and unknown theatre.?! To me, the location is not the one that matters most. It's the peopleee! I see weiling's phone w our group photo, my cover photo too, lsb's desktop & who else with our group photo on their screen?! <3 xoxo. Shows how much we really care isn't it?! :D Don't tell me cus the background nice ! I BOX U AH !

haha, anyway, Amazing Spiderman is really amazing, check out the trailer & go & watch it oki.? (:

2. Badminton & Madagascar3 (01072012)

with XiaoXin & Christine ! <3 My princesses ! 

Hehe, we were supposed to be playing badminton like "hardworkingly" at amk park.. but... WE FAILED. The weather too hot & we can't seem to find badminton courts ! HAHAHA, So we went AMK HUB to watch Madagascar 3 as three of us haven't watch it yet (: I think that its a movie worth watching too ! Funny & kinda touching.. the environmental part.. mm.. seems im kinda environmental.. so yah, kinda meaningful to me (:

TADAAA! ALFRO ALFRO!   

3. Law Investiture <3 (06072012)

It was an awesome photo-taking day ! Esp with the B1L04/11 people ! :D hehe ! But i dont have all the photos now.. D: So mehhh ~ haha! But overall proud of the Law Inc Exco really ! :D AWESOMEEE! I have high expectations, ah, no lah, i think they will do really good ! hehe ^^ Cherie Ling will definitely be a good president ! Will try to go for events ! <3

PHOTOOOOOS ~ LOW QUALITY THO ~

Waiting for those taken with DSLR & Samsung Galaxy Node(KEVIN U BTR UPLOAD!)

B1L04 Girls ! xoxo.

Lucky Clement w 2 ladies !! LOL !

After how many times then I finally took a nice photo with Chan ! :/

& Lastly otw to woodlands with George & Kev! Hope you enjoyed the movie! 

4. Rong's farewell (': (06072012-07072012)

I am not writing all the cheena things here for her la.. tho i love her a lot a lot ! Retarded girl, Chen Rong Rong ! Haha, i guess id dedicate a post on QQ for her :b

Sooo, we had fun at Kbox last night till 5.30am?!

blehh :B I drank a lot i think..? As in this is most i drank when im out w them.. Normally I don't drink w them so much :/ hahaha ~ But luckily still not drunk (:

Idk whether to be happy or sad to have this group of friends... ahhh hahahaha !

Rongrong, Meitong, Liping, Huixian, Rax, Jeremy, Clement, Leonard & Me kinda stayed thru~ Linfang came for a while (: 

Ok, idk what to say, posting this, i feel like crying.. I get all emotional ! Arghh.. IMY RONG!

Goodbye.

With the main girl of the night ! <3

Cute boy acting cute?! WTFF!

Finally another photo w Leonard! Lost the photos in genting!!

We Act cute with Meitong first..

Then we act cool with Jeremy! :B

All the girls ! xoxo.

Teaching Jeremy zilian skills! LMAO for this pic really!

All of us (':

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PS: This goodbye, do you even know what it means.?? :'(

You can do it !

林诗漫，你行的！
怎么越说自己行的，就越觉得自己不行呢？

Disappointment :(

So disappointed.
Not only with pple, but also with myself.
I couldn't believe what I just read.
It's too much for me to take it.

You. Are. Too. Much.
Ok, shall whack first.
Couldn't believe myself. So stupid.
To get cheated once again ! hmph !
I mean ! I thought everybody was good, really good !
Yet you just prove me wrong again !
What's beneath your mask that I uncover.. Is full of ugliness....
Your timeline, doesn't even make sense to me.
You are just one of that kind. Not any better.
Thanks for giving me the chance to see your true colours..
I finally get it now. I am just another toy, another tool.. To satisfy your wants.
I am utterly disappointed.
I cannot take this anymore.
I give up.
You made me stop believing.
Idk how to trust anymore.. xie xie ni hen duo.

I am disappointed w myself cuz..
There are things that I could tell anyone except for those who care for me.
Cuz they will worry, scold & whack me.
So, its so hard to open up to them !
Idw them to see me unhappy, angry or whatsoever.
I want to be strong for them. For my family & for my friends !
Idw them to worry !!!!
I hate it this way !!!!

And also the dumb me for putting in too much sometimes.
At the wrong time actually.
I can go bang wall already please.
Speaking of this, I am really guilty max !

There is this one boy,
who will call me cry baby despite my strong front.
who will guai lan me whenever possible.
who will always ask me to treat him things.
who gets punched by me whenever im in a foul mood.
Cuz he knows, he knows when i am down.
He knows when to let me let off my steam.
He is my xiao di di ! Eagon Lim Shi Bin ! :p
Heeheheeeeeeee...........
Almost. Almost cried in front of him again today..
Budden, i held on ! YAY !
& hell yeah he kinda kena whacked by me since the moment he met me after sch till we head home..
Poor him.. Yet he got no complains !
My punching bag number 1 ! <3

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PS: Where is my number 3 ?? (:


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Btw i found smtth really meaningful from Cherie's blog that i wanna share here..
Credits: http://tosmiletotheworld.blogspot.sg/
I think its so true. For me at least. Idk about other ppl though..

I laugh a lot when I am sad.

I sleep a lot a lot when I am sad.

Err, not just lonely.. It's just a way of distress for me.

And, i like to eat chips too ! (Huixian observed this from my actions, i didn't even realise it myself)

Keeping secrets, hmm, HOW CAN I TELL YOU.?!

Can't cry means weak? Gosh, I AM DAMN WEAK! LOL! I don't really believe this tho? Hope it isn't trueeee ! Cuz I really don't cry much okay !

& the rest, i think quite true ! Hmmm...

Interesting :x

When it rains, it pours....

祸不单行

The BIG four character word !
It means... Trouble never comes alone !
& I am thinking it's kinda true !!

When did my life became so messy..
I ALSO DONT KNOW LEH !
NI MA DE D:

& just when i thought i found a soulmate.. found a hao peng you..
that hao peng you have to disappoint me !
& just when i began to believe...
the noob have to shatter my hopes !

I was never gonna believe in this BGR thing after what i experienced....
& look around.. yeah true there are a lot couples sweet sweet sweet..
But, a couple that makes me able to congrats them whole heartedly..
NOT THAT MANY. REALLY.

To a beautiful bride that shall not be name, i am really glad she found her true love now <3
I pray that the groom is holy good shit !
Cuz she was hurt so deeply once..
*Flips hair* & cont with life ! How I salute her !
yeah, i mean she is really pretty &  no lack of suitors obviously.
But still.. getting hurt is still painful too.. esp for a girl like her, so lovable & loved.
Congrats on your marriage here ! :D
You shall not be reminded of the past.

Haha, as for myself.. relationship have never been really a part of my life..
hmm. SO I REALLY DONT KNOW LA !
Single means Simple, Couple means Complicated.?!
hahahah, who is willing to lead a complicated life w a simpleton like me :/
Obviously............ Nobody.??
HUR. HUR. HUR.

PS: Maybe I am stupid, but am i really that stupid.? I still have feelings okay.? It's not like i can forget every single anger i got.. I hate it when i forget everything the moment pple say sorry or act as if nth happens ! yah, act as if nth happens, then i got to forgive.? When smth happens, HOW TO ACT AS IF NTH HAPPENED?! you best at this i swear.. No sorry, just nothing. BOX BOX BOX YOU LA ! yah, & I still dk how to open my golden mouth to whack everything at you ! :x

My June holidays :3

Just an update about my June holidays ~ ^^

Weiling's Birthday + USS w shuttlers !!! :DD

Planned a surprise for the lovely woman !

Covered her eyes to USS from Studios M Hotel ! :DD

Weiling, a girl who cries so easily & melts my heart ! xoxo ! <3

Stay strong babee, for there are people out here caring about you ! 

& yeah, of course fun la ! We badminton people leh ! hahaha ! Group photos like these are awesomeeee ! :D

Perry not inside these pix cuz he left early ! Stupid fisherman ! :x

& below are some pics i really loveeeeee :D

Before we went for transformers !! XDD

Jared ai zai ai zai siol !! :B

I can never express my love for this group of humans/monsters..

Animals even.? haha how we organise them tgt.?

How we enjoy talking rubbish tgt.?

even tho thr aren't always H2H talks with them, but i care for them still !

Band Concert 2012

Haha, went with the Shuttlers again !

Ok, sian max ! But I saw yuxuan & Joel ! Still took a pic w Joel..

But sighh.. dk whr it went liao lar ! :X

More of my zilian with Sixian?! Cuz we waited for damn longgggg ~

Xian with my hairband ! <3

Harry Potter: The Exhibition

Went to this awesome exhibition with xiaoxin, georgina, christine & nixin ! :D

Nixin came directly from JB ! :D HUAT AR ! Love ya !

I particularly love this photo a lot cuz we seems to be so free ! :D

A wonderful with this bunch of bitches ! hahahhaa !

& how i wanna post xiaoxin "POHOTOSHOOT" picx here !

But i shall not have the honour of disgracing her further!

LOL, & I definitely think that the exhibition is worth it for harry potter's fans ! :D

& for me... I am okay okay, but ya i watched all movies & read some of the series.. so NOT BAD NOT BAD :D

Ok, who knows how angry & sad i was that day !

These girls brought me to let off my steam at the arcade !

Played the shooting of basketball ! 

How thankful I am to have them in my lifeeeee :D

Giving me tons of advices that i needed & the courage for me to face my problems !

hehehehe ! xie xie xie xie ni men ! WO HEN AI NI MEN WORRRR !!! :DDD

I feel damn bad for not being totally fun that day !

Felt even guilty when i poured all my problems to them..

but they not even sick of me ! Still help me think of solution ! 

WHERE TO FIND SUCH FRIENDS.?!?!!

HERE IN MY LIFE I HAVE THEM !  BLESS ME (:

Next,

GENTING TRIP :X

When i lost my phone & almost all photos are inside..

These are pics that we salvaged :B

Christine Peh Princess de SHENG RI ! 

Happy 18th to you my princess !

Thanks for always helping me you cutie ! ^^ 

xoxoxoxoxo loads !