Disappointment :(

So disappointed.
Not only with pple, but also with myself.
I couldn't believe what I just read.
It's too much for me to take it.

You. Are. Too. Much.
Ok, shall whack first.
Couldn't believe myself. So stupid.
To get cheated once again ! hmph !
I mean ! I thought everybody was good, really good !
Yet you just prove me wrong again !
What's beneath your mask that I uncover.. Is full of ugliness....
Your timeline, doesn't even make sense to me.
You are just one of that kind. Not any better.
Thanks for giving me the chance to see your true colours..
I finally get it now. I am just another toy, another tool.. To satisfy your wants.
I am utterly disappointed.
I cannot take this anymore.
I give up.
You made me stop believing.
Idk how to trust anymore.. xie xie ni hen duo.

I am disappointed w myself cuz..
There are things that I could tell anyone except for those who care for me.
Cuz they will worry, scold & whack me.
So, its so hard to open up to them !
Idw them to see me unhappy, angry or whatsoever.
I want to be strong for them. For my family & for my friends !
Idw them to worry !!!!
I hate it this way !!!!

And also the dumb me for putting in too much sometimes.
At the wrong time actually.
I can go bang wall already please.
Speaking of this, I am really guilty max !

There is this one boy,
who will call me cry baby despite my strong front.
who will guai lan me whenever possible.
who will always ask me to treat him things.
who gets punched by me whenever im in a foul mood.
Cuz he knows, he knows when i am down.
He knows when to let me let off my steam.
He is my xiao di di ! Eagon Lim Shi Bin ! :p
Heeheheeeeeeee...........
Almost. Almost cried in front of him again today..
Budden, i held on ! YAY !
& hell yeah he kinda kena whacked by me since the moment he met me after sch till we head home..
Poor him.. Yet he got no complains !
My punching bag number 1 ! <3

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PS: Where is my number 3 ?? (:


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Btw i found smtth really meaningful from Cherie's blog that i wanna share here..
Credits: http://tosmiletotheworld.blogspot.sg/
I think its so true. For me at least. Idk about other ppl though..

I laugh a lot when I am sad.

I sleep a lot a lot when I am sad.

Err, not just lonely.. It's just a way of distress for me.

And, i like to eat chips too ! (Huixian observed this from my actions, i didn't even realise it myself)

Keeping secrets, hmm, HOW CAN I TELL YOU.?!

Can't cry means weak? Gosh, I AM DAMN WEAK! LOL! I don't really believe this tho? Hope it isn't trueeee ! Cuz I really don't cry much okay !

& the rest, i think quite true ! Hmmm...

Interesting :x