Why can't I nap /:

Since when did I became like this?
Since that incident?
Yes, since that time, since that frigging time.

On board of 168 from tamp to woodlands. Having a seat, but I just can't fall asleep. Its been months this physical change is affecting me. I rmb the old me. The old me where I have the ability to doze off at any bus rides. even the shortest rides like 10min?! But now, even if I'm taking from one end to the other end of sg, I just cant fall asleep.. And thats the reason why am I blogging now... Too bored on board yet I JUST CANNOT FCUKING SLEEP~! Arghh.. Dreams still haunts me every sleep but I guess I'm getting used to all those random yet vivid dreams. Except if it happens when I'm about to wake up. Those dreams just suck all my energy.. i wish I know how to make full use of my time..

Today. Disappointed. On the verge of tearing. Cuz of School. I'm actually glad that I still care about my school work.. Haha, I do care I guess? But cuz of a small mistake i got penalised like a lot.. So it was really depressing and demoralising. Even my tutor said she was sorry to penalise me so heavily but sigh, I can only blame myself for being so carless.. SM ah SM, you need to be more focus and less blur okay???!! Believe that you are able to make up for it !!

PS: 他们说: 傻人有傻福 - NOOOO! You need to be more careful and stop being a foolish blur blur !!! *Fighting*