So we didn't had Watami :( Had some CoCo Curry house at The Star Vista ~ So spicyyyy Imma dieeee :( Then was about to head home ytd but ting suggested KBox with Valerie ~ So there I go.. Its been awhile since I meet up with them so yeah, KBox~ Sang w my already bad throat so it got worseeee :( Sigh, oh whatever..
I am feeling emotional for no good reason now.. Get so pissed easily :( Why? :( Mom nag at me then I feel pissed.? Looking forward to tomorrow when dad and her will be going overseas? What a noob daughter -.- I hate myself.. Useless piece of shit ! School is starting tomorrow, I am not ready, like seriously.. I need to be in control of my life :( Control my thoughts, control my mind and control my actions..
I hate myself so much now that I feel like I am just a burden to my family and friends. I hate how I am feeling now. I hate this "I don't know what to do" feeling that I've been getting recently.. Everything also dk, everything also cannot decide.. Seriously how can I be so noob!?! Why can't I have a proper goal and work towards it.?! Idk what I want.. Idw anything.. Sometimes I feel like I might as well just graduate from poly then get some job that will get me through my life.. No need to be rich, just do ok will do.. Some metal bowl, sign on, nie.? Idk. Very lost now.. Sigh.. Graduate then say ba ?! Sigh~!! Guess this is it.?? Guess this is my sucky life of don't know what to do.. (-.-)|||
And I hate myself for being such a loser in front of you.. Making you sad, depressed and unhappy. That's all I am doing now isn't it.?! I want you to be happy yet I am the one hurting you.. Hate me.?? Better for you I guess.? All the promises, gone. All the trusts, gone. All the times, gone. I miss you, I miss those times we spent together.. You tell me you dowan me to let go, but I can't help feeling that if I let go, you will be happier isn't it.? Show it to me.
PS: Need to buck up.
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