Septwolve

This title is a joke :P for those who get it good for you, for those who don't then too bad~! LOL~!
This post is for me to post rubbish, so whateverrrrrr !

I've not been using comp cuz I was busy working, literally.. Really busy !
Almost 10 weddings in 2 days, what the shit you pple who take on the events thinking.!?! Want my life is it.? LOL.. Hahaha.. & yeap, I am finally having my break now.. Not working for one week from today (: I guess working helps me to pass my time really, its good.. but now, to the point that I am crumbling physically, feeling so eff-ing shag even though I've rested for a day, I need a break.. Not for my brain but for my health too :( Sigh, hope my body will be okay~

I got zero talent for pretending, acting and lyingg~! ZEROOOOO~!!!!
Laughing like siao when I read through Sam's post about her birthday..

September.. Last year, was disaster..
This year, its worse than disaster..
Like what you say, Whirlpool.?! haha, what a joke..
I sincerely feel that nothing can make me wanna laugh.. Cuz nothing is more like a joke than my life !
Last last week, for 4 days straight, I cried.. Haha, dk for fuck really !
A hug makes it even worse, worse than ever~!!!! Sorry I had to tell you to not hug me so that my tears won't fall, but really, Idk why I cry.. Maybe I miss you too much.?! Or maybe all the feelings just gush into me when you embrace me.. Idk, i really don't know.. What am I embracing.? All the pain and fears.?! Its rare to see me breakdown, its even more rare to see me breakdown in front of pple that I am not close with ! So paiseh when he enter ! Haha, cried a puddle of tears, how pathetic can I get.?! I just don't know what to believe and what not to believe anymore !!! Sigh, 我就是傻傻的，相信你会对我诚实，可是你真的诚实吗？很多心里的话你没告诉我对吧？信任？我对你的信任是100％，你对我的又是多少呢？我很害怕，真的很害怕，你们都太厉害了，装得那么好，我的演技实在不如你们，又怎么能跟得上呢？Honesty, I yearn so much for it :O I know certain things that you don't say, i am not unfeeling if thats what you think of me.. But it hurts so much when you hide those thoughts from me, cuz you're afraid to hurt me.?! Nahh, you just don't believe I can handle them~  /:
Typing all these out just makes my tears wanna fall again~ Sighh~

I don't know a lot of things.
I don't know how to start to doubt people.
I don't know how to differentiate joking or serious talk.
I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know!!!!!!!!

PS: 明明不太悲壮，却受了英雄的伤～