Days like this :(

MOODLESS. SPEECHLESS. NOTHINGNESS.

舍不得是人最大的弱点，也是最真的善良。
有多不舍得，也要选择离开，因为这是我觉得最好的决定，来满足你所要的生活。

Days pass and feelings fade, I’m wondering if you regret that decision you made.
I. Never. Regret.

PS: Time like these. Where I am suppose to have no time at all. OB script, learning session, BA tutorial.. Sigh.. I rather I sleep.. Filter out negative thoughts, I've got no time for these craps (: Ok this is really bad.. I should go to bed soon :(

Anw, blogger is pissing the hell out of me, I can't edit my blog like whut ?! They should quickly fix this stupid problem eh !! #bullshit

This.

Sometimes, some things

有时候，故意把自己搞到很忙，为了不让自己胡思乱想～

有些事就算我們再怎麼不情願，也得做。

有些人就算我們再怎麼不喜歡，也得忍 !

This is life, suck it up (Y)

Gone were those days :'(

Only had lecture from 9am to 11am today, but it was a busy day!!

What I did today
- Rehearse conveyancing role play
- Study for conveyancing
- OB tutorial
- UT script done !! :D
- Help Yuzheng book chalet

Taking a short break before I polish my company law project stuffs (:

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Yes, gone were those days where the only thing we do is to enjoy life..

走着走着， 就散了， 回忆都淡了；
看着看着， 就累了， 星光也暗了；
听着听着， 就醒了， 开始埋怨了；
回头发现， 你不见了， 突然我乱了。

从前，已不见，我们能做的，就是向前…… 我和你的故事也到了断点……我们曾经相信的故事，相信彼此会在彼此的身边，一直到永远，永远做好朋友，都没了，没了……虽然很痛，不过我会试着用笑容面对一切（^_^）不是笑一笑，没什么事情过不了吗？呵呵～ 太多人停留在过去，不愿意往前……我嘛，也不就是其中一个？没什么特别的，也没什么希奇的。不管开心或不开心，地球照转，时间照走，没有人会可怜你不是吗？
Heartache, lies, not moving on etc. I am just one of them ^^ Nothing new, nothing special (: #WHATSTHEBIGDEAL :B

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Lastly, Happy birthday JunSu Oppa!!! ^^

Perfect looks & beautiful voice x

MA HANSUM BOY <3

How to be more careful !?

I really detest this blurness of mine! Some people still can tell me 傻人会有傻福！？Mehhhh!!!! Lies lies lies! Being as blur as me will only cause unluckiness! Yeah I am blogging now cuz I took the wrong side of the train at city hall and i have to go one big round before i reach cck.. Arghh!!! Not to even mentioning what happened this week, I forgot my earpiece before I went out today, then I went home to take it. when I board the bus I realised I coincidentally forgot my ez link card too :( do I really need someone else to always be there to remind me what to bring out, check my bag, check my time table? NOOOOOO!!!!!!

Sigh talking about this week. I thought conveyancing starts at 12pm.. So I happily went to have lunch with xx & chris after BA lecture. HOW AWKWARD IT WAS FOR ME TO ENTER I LAW AT 12 WHEN LESSON STARTED AT 11AM! FML LIKE SERIOUSLY!!! /: Like a Joke /:

Cant blame others for laughing at me? Cuz I am a blur sotong that is born to be laughed at? This week is just so... The only good thing is that I passed my BTT (:

PS: Someone please teach me how to be less blur ~ If not i will become smbeyondBLURsky really soooon :(

我真的不想的 :(

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TO DO LIST BY THURSDAY! D:< (I JUST HAVE TO TYPE THIS OUT!)

- Company Law Quiz (Monday 0900)
- Article analysis for OB
- Complete Company Law Task 2
- Finish conveyancing law role play rehearsal
- Study conveyancing law 
- Finish up script for Understanding Theatre
- Rehearse play for UT
- BA tutorial
- OB tutorial 

A Dog x

I want a dog.
I should say, I want a pet.
At times like this, I really wish I can have a pet by my side.
To take care and have fun with it (:

But, the only animal I can imagine taking care of is a dog.
hahaha, bias-ness i know.. XP

But, I know I don't have the time for a dog right now..
I am going to be a bad owner..
If I managed to find a stray dog, yeah I will definitely adopt it..
But to buy a dog rn? Nah.. My mom will slaughter me :(
I love dogs, big ones, small ones, haha especially big ones ^_<

You know, my dream is to have a husky (: hehe ^^

You ran a marathon? 

How heavy was the sled? 

(hehe)

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Been really busy and my mind is in a mess!
3 projects to do over this weekend and company law test on monday :(

No time for this little space of mine?
Might be posting ridiculously short posts /:
I need to jiayou !!! /:

PS: Till I find meaning in this life (:

Don't you love.?

"You think I didn't love him meh?"

Someone said that to me.
No la, you loved him a lot a lot ok? hahaha
But sad to say, sometimes, love is not enough, there are so many factors affecting a relationship. Personality, timing, family, background, future, friends blah blah blah.. Love is overrated to me cuz it really isn't everything.. Don't tell me you can survive on love alone.. Three words: In your dreams. Food, water, air and other basic necessities ? How about that ?

Sometimes love isn't love. Even when two are in love with each other, they cannot be together.

You think its romantic that a girl elope w a guy in dramas? It is just plain childish to me. Someone committing suicide for another, giving up everything for the other party.. You mad bro? There are certain things you must sacrifice, certain things you can choose to give in and some things that you can give up, but, committing suicide when someone doesn't love you like the way you love him/her? Plain stupidity. Many things are part of your life. BGR is just a part of it. Maybe cuz of the time you spend with him/her thats why it feels like a huge part of your life.. But tell me, will you really die if he/she leaves you? Nah, water & food will ensure your survival already..

PS: Let go of what isn't compatible with your life :D

Anw, quick rant of Queen of SOP..
Even though I am kind of attracted to Zhang Han, this person made a really good view of the drama~
http://dramarants.wordpress.com/2012/07/29/the-queen-of-sop-first-impressions-ost/
tadaaaaaaa~!

Hello, my gang (:

Hello, sick girl over here.. Its going to be 4am soon but here I am,  wide awake.. Cuz I napped just now.. Having a long long longgg chat with Mandi now.. But I think she is asleep already? hehe.. Somehow, I am so missing my friends rn /: so.. I shall blog about them !

Najiha's belated birthday surprise (:

Mandi, Joey, Sam, Cass and Najiha had a girl day out in the noon to Strictly Pancakes! (: My virgin trip there and it was okayyy i guess.? But I don't think I will suggest to go there myself.. hahaha, not worth it for the food? It was a good experience nevertheless! Its been so long since I meet them out and chat with them. Its been so long now too since this happened like one month plus ago and I am only blogging about it now.. hahaa.. so sorrryyy :(

Then we had to blindfold Najiha to Swensens! HAD A REALLY HARD TIME LOOKING FOR THE SWENSENS IN ION !!!! >:( It is at such a secluded area LOL

And yeap! Had a great dinner there with the Gang~ So much fun ^^

Love this photo, we look like a heartshape don't you think so? <3

Haha, celebrating christmas in a christmas tree teehee ^^

We look like a family at a wedding dinner no? hehe ^^ 

WE SHOT THROUGH THE FOG (:

(Genting Trip)

Genting trip was really more fun than what I imagined.. Really.. Over my expectations!

Genting is a boring place. Really. Like a mini sentosa with lots of fog.. But they managed to make it so damn fun! We were all really tired before the trip, during the trip and after the trip.. But I appreciate all the fun this group of ppls give to me (: Without them, I guess my life would be definitely less fun x 10000.. Yuzheng & Shukai were really such gentlemen ^^ Good roommates to bunk in with ! I want to thank them for being so understanding to girls' needs.. The amount of time Sam and me hogged the toilet.. They were so understanding.. They even went to the other guys' rooms to have their shower.. Thanks guys! 

And Sam, I am glad you "pressured" me to come for this trip <: And I am super happy that you took the space shot ! LIKE SUPER! I don't know how to express my satisfaction when you decided to take the space shot with me! haha, I know to me all those rides seems pretty pointless cuz I am not afraid of rides. I know its a big try-out for you and I am glad you did it with me! :D hahas, super happy you know? Even though I didn't show it out <:

But there are also moments that I was quite pissed during this trip.. MEAL TIMES :( Arghh.. I would rather eat separately.. Yeah, we did eat separately.. Its too much a chore to find places that can fit 16 of us.. Yeah, that is practically the only downside in this trip /:

Bowling session was awesome thanks to the luminous alley~! So much fun ^^

Karaoke sessions were not bad too.. considering 16 ppl, 2 mics.. haha, I'd love to hear Malcolm rap again! Like a black rapper really! DAEBAKK! 

Pub session. To bring yuzheng to drink! LOL! Martell with mixer! weehoo! The place was too noisy for us to talk properly.. so.. it was alright I guess.. 

YOLO-ED? I guess everyone did their yolo stuffs there except me.. Haha, I still don't find the challenge for me in genting or in life .. 

So thankful for them to be in my life & to take up my time :D

2 years after graduation.. How many two years will there be in the future? :O

PS: Indeed. There will be problems between friends, but if everyone is willing to put in effort, this friendship thing might just work out (: 

Anw mandi is really asleep, goodnight ! Time for me to head to bed too ! :O 

2013

Today did not feel like 2013 totally.
I am feeling so lost now.
I actually dread this new year so much.

Dreading the start of school.
Dreading attachment.
Dreading the NS enrollment of the JC guys.
Dreading the changes that will be coming.
Dreading the changes I have to make.
Dreading the responsibilities that I have to shoulder.
And lastly, dreading another year of mind-fucks.

Nothing much to look forward to, 2013 better be good /:

PS: 如果我真的很成熟，就不会那么痛苦了。If I really am mature, I wouldn't be so miserable.

Merry Xmas & Happy New Year (:

Blog is really outdated with my events and everything.
Been really busy this holiday. (Partly because this holiday is way too short)
Worked for straight 7 days.

Being alone at home never felt so good. And today's break comes with me ditching work this morning. Down with flu still.. I need to get better so that I can have fun (supposedly) at the countdown chalet. Things have not been going really well this holiday. FML & WTF flying through  my mind almost every single day.. so.. generally, still unhappy.. Sigh.. Nothing can cheer me up actually, nothing.

This post is to end this year. I suppose this would be the last post of the year, cuz I really have no time to blog. I havent even update Najiha's birthday celebration pictures lehh /:

To summarise things:

30112012
The celebration of Najiha's birthday. Spent the noon at Strictly pancakes with the girls (: Joey, Mandi, Sam, Cass & of course Najiha (: Then the night at swensens ion plus the guys !! (:

12122012
121212! Its my test day on OB! But Chirs & me went to catch SM TOWN LIVE IN TOKYO 3D in the theatre at tampines! hehe ^^ Love TVXQ <3 Of course all the artists too ~ Like Shinee, BoA~

14122012
Seoul Garden with classmates to celebrate Agatha's birthday ^^
Then Play Nation with badminton ppl ! KINECT WAS GOOD~! Muscle aching like mad the next dayy...  Then they had sakae sushi buffet while Daphne & me watch only cuz I was still full from seoul garden.. After that pool at timah for awhile, then HOMEEE

15122012
A werewolf boy with xiaoxin, nixin & christine <3
This movie is good (: The three girls cried like mad :'( Their poor jongki :(

Then Astons with team (: Nice food (:

Then I spent the night at Clarke Quay with Meitong & AhMei ! <3 Sweetest ! In love with Martell with mixtures hahahaha <3

16122012
Family day~ Watched the Hotel Transylvania with Ting (: Such a cute movie (:

17122012 - 19122012
Genting Baby (:
Genting trip with the gang. What more can I say? I enjoyed the trip a lot, even though the lack of sleep was killing me on the inside >:( Thanks Jingpeng for planning the trip and treating first day karaoke ^^ Thanks Swine for treating 2nd day karaoke! Happy! :D

22122012
Chinese Zodiac 12 with Sixian & Weiling ! :D
JACKKY CHANNN~! WUUUU HAAA!

23122012
Xmas celebration at xiaoyee's house <3
Family love (: Hehe, I realise how long i've not seen Jovie, she've grown so much (: Sorry bbg, I also dk why am I so busy nowadays :( Imy a lot de ok? Don't blame yiyi :( & thanks my aunts and cousin for the xmas prezzies! Its the thought that counts <3

I guess these are the outings that I remember..
I know this post is really boring.. But I guess its just to help me remember some friends, some events and some memories (: Cuz even when people go, memories and feelings still remains :*
Everything is gonna be alright :3

PS: 希望能找到活下去的理由～

One year

What was I doing this time, last year?

Oh, I remembered..

Oh, I love that memory..

Oh, I am just gonna keep it with me.. Forever..

Because #YOLO,

because I gave so much to make her happy,

because I won't have the chance to do it again,

because nothing will be the same again,

because I choose to be negative now,

because I chose to walk this path alone,

because I decide on avoidance and depression and,

because I don't know anything anymore..

PS: 与其说我不想见到你，不如说是我不知道该怎么面对你 :(

Blackalogy Nothing hurts more than being disappointed by the single person you thought would never hurt you. 12 12 12 2:29 PM

12.12.12

A date to remember,
but not a day to remember.

Day by day,
week by week,
month by month,
maybe even year by year?

PS: This is the worst, neither heaven nor hell.. /:

I love you with an I love you

Sometimes we can't treat others the way way they treat us.. And sometimes we just cannot reply an iloveyou with an iloveyou /:

Nth is going into my head now thats why i'm here /: Hope Dad is reaching soon so that I can go home. Sitting down here at hollandv's coffee bean, with rows of bars on my right blasting party musics, I... am... so... jealous of pple who are not having exams now !!! This is a place full of fun, joy, laughter, peace, anger & tears |: Oh how I miss those days? Haha.. Having a little hope that I will wake up one day with everything remaining the same? Wishful thinking me /: As if time will rewind.?! /: Things aren't ever gonna be the same again.. haha dkdc (:

Yeah. & Ive got to wrap up november on my blog !!! Anw JIAYOU TO MYSELF FOR ONE MORE WEEK :D

PS: Just because you can’t understand something, it doesn’t mean it’s wrong. –Arthur (The Sword in the Stone)

3 more hours :(

3 more hours of sleep left yet I am here.. Cuz I can't fall asleep..
And I am thinking the reason is because I am too angry >:(
I was looking forward to today since last week.. But.. Things just don't go my way yea?
Today its not about my point of view of anything.. Its just me, myself and I.. Its just about my life.. Complaints and unhappiness.. A life thats not interesting for you to care about..

Pretty pissed off at the class work and everything just don't seem to go well ! :( After today I feel that I should just shut up, stop talking and giving any ideas.. ya, I should just say I cannot make it then you won't feel pekcek and upset isn't it.? I shouldn't even give up my time to go.. Ya, its me that wanna go, its not you guys that want me to go isn't it.? I go or don't go also the same what.. Its becoming a habit.. If I can make time for people, I will do it, no complaints no nothing.. I don't expect any gratefulness but you don't criticise me ok.? Hey, Idk if I am taking things too seriously or what.. But, I have feelings too okay.? It sucks when my close friends just doubt me like nobody business.. Dejecting, demoralising and hurting.. Ok lor, my taste for shows sucks, my taste for guys sucks, my taste for books sucks, my taste for food sucks, my taste for games sucks, my taste for clothing sucks, my taste for everything sucks, my skills for everything sucks ok?! Happy?! My choice of words sucks, my ideas sucks, the activities I like sucks, the music I like sucks, the places I go to sucks.. Everything about me just sucks ok?! OKAY?! Whatever you do and have is the best la ok?! You make the best decision and you have the best taste.. I shouldnt give my opinion to anything anymore cuz my opinion won't even be taken into account.. "Aiya, shiman say one cannot be trusted, shiman do one cannot be trusted" Yeah, I guess I just cannot be trusted.. Cuz everything about me is so lousy, lousy beyond words.. I should give up, give up trying to find pple to do the things I like with me.. Cuz nobody likes them..

Idw this anger to win and overwhelm me..
I want to tell myself you don't mean it and everything.. but I just cant..
Not once, not twice, but its so frigging obvious about your attitude towards me..
ya, ppl tickle me I get scared and I fidget is my fault.. yah my fault. I am the one thats childish. Ok can, you damn mature, you damn fucking mature. yeah right. -.- & how you criticise on ppl's dressing, please look at yourself first.. I cannot stand it anymore.. You wear that.. It doesn't even look legit ok -.- Damn and I realise I talk rubbish when I am tired.. When I go gaga, I make ppl angry too.. Daphne got angry with me on whatsapp ytd... Sigh.. ya, cuz I talk rubbish when Im tired, hungry.. Rant and rant and rant.. I needa sleep :(

And to someone, ‎"I am not the one you want right now and maybe I never will be. Of course it hurts to think of it this way but there is no use pretending otherwise. Whatever happens, I just hope you will find someone who makes you smile every day. Someone who will challenge you to be a better person, someone who will open your heart and your mind and your eyes, someone who will deserve you and everything that you are." I pity you a lot cuz you don't know your worth.. Or maybe you think too highly of others.. Ask yourself, are you really a better person now? I don't think so my dear >_<

PS: I REALLY DON'T KNOW WTF YOU PEOPLE HAVE IN YOUR F-ING MINDS.

Blurrrrrrest !

I've gotta post about this..
I never thought I'd be blur to this extent..
I know I am a blursotong.. But this is seriously tooooooo blur~!! I cannot stand myself anymore!! Just posted previously that I need to be more focus and everything and now this happen !!! >:( Quite disappointed and angry with myself!!

Ok so this is what happened. I reached my workplace at around 10.30 ytd to change into my uniform. I was punctual, no rush at all.. Just a bit tired from my lack of sleep.. So I happily change into my uniform, went for lunch at the canteen and start work... Then 2300! Time to go home! I took off my uniform and opened my bag, guess what, I BLOODY HELL CANT FIND MY CLOTHES INSIDE MY BAG! I WAS SO PANIC AND SCARED! TOTALLY IN SHOCKKKK!!!! (Yeah, I didn't put my clothes into my bag in the morning /: ) one of the blurrest thing I ever done in my 18 years of life although I do have many embarrassing moments. SiXian was like, don't tell me you cant find ur shirt hor ! but LUCKILY NOBODY TOOK MY SHIRT FOR THE PAST 12 HOURS! It was still laying at the place i put it.. But damn I swear I really freaked out /:/: I really need to learn how to be more careful with my stuffs *Phew*

Sad part is that GuoWen keeps pushing me to share with her smth that I dont even wanna bring it up anymore. Sorry babe, its not that i don't trust you, its not that idw to share, its just that I cant. I want everyone to rmb them as the most beautiful them (: I cannot bear to spoil any of their image (:

In your memory, its a beautiful them, let it stay this way (:

PS: I tried remembering your password, but I don't remember it anymore ( : Two down !

Skyfall: 007

Have not been updating on my life I guess? Super lazy pig over here..
Anw I caught Skyfall: 007 with KL !!

I'd say the movie is not bad~!! hehe ^^ Enjoyed the gun shooting a lot.. & that Old lady finally die.. RIP M (':
But all in all I still hate war shows esp those that shows army that chiong to each other and blah blah blah.. Shooting Lord of the rings indirectly >_< ( I tried so hard to finish the 3 movies but.. I am still not done with it )

I want to blog about Sixian's prom and Kranji Badminton Camp but not now! Cuz I still have learning session 4 to be done~! Sigh !!

This week was really a busy week, so ytd when I came home from camp, I slept like 13h straight till 10am this morning.. But nevertheless it was not a peaceful sleep ! I still had nightmare.. Random people that I don't even contact with ! Dreamt of them laughing at my GPA !! Wtf !! Sigh.. What a nightmare >:(

Looking forward to dinz with PehLayTeng, PehLayPing & BingBong tonight <3 Its been awhile since 4 of us go out and keesiao together. Just Fun, Joy & Laughter.. Looking forward to next week too (:

But on the side note, I need to stop going out after next week, just to concentrate on my studies for awhile~ Shiman! You can do it!! (:

Bye!

PS: Life Goes On (:

Why can't I nap /:

Since when did I became like this?
Since that incident?
Yes, since that time, since that frigging time.

On board of 168 from tamp to woodlands. Having a seat, but I just can't fall asleep. Its been months this physical change is affecting me. I rmb the old me. The old me where I have the ability to doze off at any bus rides. even the shortest rides like 10min?! But now, even if I'm taking from one end to the other end of sg, I just cant fall asleep.. And thats the reason why am I blogging now... Too bored on board yet I JUST CANNOT FCUKING SLEEP~! Arghh.. Dreams still haunts me every sleep but I guess I'm getting used to all those random yet vivid dreams. Except if it happens when I'm about to wake up. Those dreams just suck all my energy.. i wish I know how to make full use of my time..

Today. Disappointed. On the verge of tearing. Cuz of School. I'm actually glad that I still care about my school work.. Haha, I do care I guess? But cuz of a small mistake i got penalised like a lot.. So it was really depressing and demoralising. Even my tutor said she was sorry to penalise me so heavily but sigh, I can only blame myself for being so carless.. SM ah SM, you need to be more focus and less blur okay???!! Believe that you are able to make up for it !!

PS: 他们说: 傻人有傻福 - NOOOO! You need to be more careful and stop being a foolish blur blur !!! *Fighting*

Break ups

I am being random.. These thoughts just came by me.. /:

So many relationships around me going crazy and all..

I feel sad for them.. Some are better off some aren't..

But just a little note from my point,

breaking up because the feelings are just not there anymore, and you tell the truth to the other party, I guess its okay, its better.. But breaking up when both of you have feelings for each other, when its because of all those lies cause by greediness and when you know things won't work out anymore.. I guess this situations hurts so much more.. 

Time for breakfast & school in this rainy weather :(

Sigh pie day ahead :(

PS: Just be glad that it is not you (:

Bound to drift apart |:

I cannot deny, deep down inside, that I am angry somehow. Nor am I able to deny this feeling of sadness, frustration and dejection. Somehow, it gives me a feeling that each and every person is insulting the friendship that we had, the memories that we share and bond that we built. 

Yes, I'm trying to see that it is not my fight anymore, when people don't listen, nor do they even try to share, and only say that they are tired, and don't wish to talk about it anymore. It was a problem, and it is still is, if people only think they are tired and refuses to make it happen together. 

Run, go on, run as far as you can, and point the finger back to people you run from. Everyone is tired and running in opposite direction while pointing at each other. You think its fun trying to reach out to all direction, trying to hold everyone back a little just so we can try to resolve this issue. 

But no. I'm not going to say it's not fun and that I am tired here. Because I will end up like everyone who did.

(Quoted from FB)

I hate it when I am able to relate to sadness, unhappiness and dejection :( It's really sad when people you know become people that you knew and how you used to be able to talk to them and now you can barely look at them. Its as if nobody takes you seriously.. From somebody that I can plan my calendar with to somebody I used to know.. Like everybody is bound to drift apart.. I hate the fact that I have to tell someone oh, I used to be close with him/her, oh, when we hanged out tgt this and that blah blah blah~ What happened to putting in effort to stay tgt.?? I keep telling myself to accept those facts.. Look, how many primary school friends do you rmb.? I can say almost none.. Look at this fact, we are all gonna drift apart and end up being alone someday. I told myself these goodbyes are part and parcel of my life.. But tbh, tears well up every single time I miss the past. I will never understand how fast things and people can change. I've seen people who can be really close to you for like 3 days and then boom, they disappeared all of the sudden. Now with facebook, the pain just multiply by a thousand times. Whenever I look at those past albums.. I can see people who are never ever gonna appear in my future albums.. Even the closest ones.. And thats what hurts the most.. How did this happen.? I seriously hate this.. And I hate what I am feeling now.. If I miss something, I will definitely use my actions to prove it.. But some people, don't deserve this, and don't worth my time. I know, I know. I hate that I care for people who used to care about me (even though idk if they were real).. That day when I went to mei's house.. I saw those polaroids.. I took photos of them.. But what for.? I can't even post them up and tell the whole world how much I miss those times.. Cuz those people are gone like forever.. China or where Idk lah hor.. Just gone.. I just really want to breakdown every single time my heart aches :( Everything changed, I hate how life works.

& so i told myself that words don't mean anything, unless your actions comply to them. Posting IMY everyday is not going to bring back anything if you don't do something about it. Don't post for the sake of posting cuz all you have got nth else to post. So you post about your beautiful past memories which you won't ever have now. yeap, all those words, though not lie, are worst than lies. Give hopes and crush them.. Slam straight into their faces if they could see it.. Sometimes I wonder, what else can you sacrifice.? Wealth, health, friendships and even family...? If you chose and create loneliness, please don't regret it (: And stop saying things which you don't have the intention to do it.. haha, you think I dont't have the means to give my friends a bday treat myself? Gave you a chance but you seem to be throwing it away.. Suan le ba, this small money, I can help you to pay (: & tbh, I also have the means to pay for my own needs.. Do you think I really need you? Nope. Talk no action once again. I can take action myself (:

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Today was a bad day.. Late for class..

Fluuuuu and runny nose for the whole day.. Cold until wanna die...

My CDS: Understanding Theatre.. I am the only one that cannot upload my journals~!!

Sir said, stress are absorbed by your body and will affect you physically..

So true, so true :(

PS: Just because you miss someone, doesn't mean you need them back in your life. Missing is just a part of moving on.

Ah Boys to Men

A JACK NEO FILM.

So.... I went to catch this movie a few hours ago with MeiTongYap (:
And today was a longgg dayyyy, this will not be my only post cuz I've so much to talk about.. Yeah, I am this talkative and nonsensical (: Cannot tahan myself sometimes..

Haha, back to topic. Ah Boys To Men.
I. DON'T. KNOW. HOW. TO. APPRECIATE. THIS. MOVIE. >:(

The above statements says it all...
When everybody was hyped about this movie, I got interested..
Then MeiTong asked me to go and watch...
I only view the trailer today during break.. I LMAO DUE TO THE LAMENESS..
Claimed to have the most visual effects of local movies..
I guess so.? But the effects are... errr... I am speechless about it..
I almost wanted to text Tong that Idw to watch this movie.. I rather watch twilight or Skyfall ._.
But I know Tong doesn't really like english movies.. sooo.. I was hoping the movie will be more meaningful than the trailer since everybody is saying that its a movie worth watching..

To my disappointment, I almost wanted to fall asleep in the theatre..

Anw, war shows are not my type.
Its really saddening to watch them. Yet this movie made it a joke. So I wanna cry cannot cry, wanna laugh cannot laugh. Whut, like really whutttt~!!!?! Sigh..

Waste my monehh :(

(Lazy to attach pictures and trailers blah blah blah)

Extraordinary

Tasted extraordinary. Can't go back to ordinary.

Quoted: 还是没习惯国内的生活，总感觉缺少了些什么.虽然回到了家.但并没有想象中家的温暖.是长大了 还是我变了...

生活变了，我们也变了，怎么还会习惯那平平淡淡的生活呢？
尝了山珍海味，又有谁还会说家常便饭好吃呢？可能吧。不过那就要你吃得腻了。如果就是轻轻的尝了一口，你难道不会想吃下去吗？Of course, the life you experienced was so colourful, to expect yourself to get use to the plain life once again, its gonna be hard, and you will not be used to it definitely. Life is such irony. You want thrills and yet you want inner peace.

Tonight is one of the night where negative emotions comes to haunt me.
Someone told me how I wish I was prettier and richer. I told that someone, neither r/s nor friendship should go for that. But tonight I don't have that confident for my statement. You need to be pretty on the outside and the inside before anyone wants you. It's like wtfff, but that is how harsh this world is right now. Tonight is a bad night. Should be doing against rather be doing. Should be washing, studying, ah wtv. but I am not. Pretty wasted my night :(

I don't have that confident anymore.
Cuz life is so harsh upon us.

Fairness? Only Time has it. Time stop for no one and speed up for no one.
But sometimes I wish I can there is a pause button, really, I only need a pause button /:

Stress is the only word for me now /:

PS: To be able to memorise the shape of a P, you're blessed (: