Monday, April 30, 2012

Y U RAGE?!?!?!

Smth from facebook which i think is really meaningful (:


"Why We Shout In Anger"

A Hindu saint who was visiting river Ganges to take bath found a group of family members on the banks, shouting in anger at each other. He turned to his disciples smiled 'n asked.

'Why do people shout in anger shout at each other?'

Disciples thought for a while, one of them said, 'Because we lose our calm, we shout.'

'But, why should you shout when the other person is just next to you? You can as well tell him what you have to say in a soft manner.' asked the saint

Disciples gave some other answers but none satisfied the other disciples.
Finally the saint explained, .

'When two people are angry at each other, their hearts distance a lot. To cover that distance they must shout to be able to hear each other. The angrier they are, the stronger they will have to shout to hear each other to cover that great distance.

What happens when two people fall in love? They don't shout at each other but talk softly, Because their hearts are very close. The distance between them is either nonexistent or very small...'

The saint continued, 'When they love each other even more, what happens? They do not speak, only whisper 'n they get even closer to each other in their love. Finally they even need not whisper, they only look at each other 'n that's all. That is how close two people are when they love each other.'

He looked at his disciples 'n said.

'So when you argue do not let your hearts get distant, Do not say words that distance each other more, Or else there will come a day when the distance is so great that you will not find the path to return.'


Let's not put in any more distance between us, enough is enough.. I am not going to rage at you any longer.. Cus I really do care :( but, one hand isn't enough to clap.. Will you spare a thought for me too?

I know it's hard to remember, the people we used to be. ♥

Post title, quoted from Nathaniel Low as a caption from our group photo..
Found it really heartwarming & beautiful :-*


Happy birthday to kevin leonggg llamaaa ~ !!! XDD
Really laughed my ass off at those horny & biantai talks of ong qin he ! EDISON ONG!
Maybe he as horny as Edison Chen !! :P
Had a great time w all these ppl, & no matter what happens in the future, i wish them all the best & hope that they will all have a bright bright BRIGHT future ahead !! 

The six ladies !
Till next time yooo ~ !
I didnt realise how much i miss them till i see them !
xoxo hugs & kisses! Muakks!
Have boyfriend or not, we still love one another a lot !
Thats till now what i think.. haha maybe some one will turn bad though?? hmm! HOPE NOT!
& yeahh, totally cold shoulders w sixian before this meet up! luckily some friends gave me the courage to talk it out w her ! :D tyvm !

B1L04 !!! xoxo
Ok, dk why this pic over here so blur though :(
We asked security guard to help us take this photooo (:
I alr start to miss them after one week of school ~ seriously :(
KEVINNY & GEORGINNY PLEASE LAST LONGGG ! :D
sweethearts ! 

All the precious pple to me (:
Good life, good life, I do have good life don't I.? ^^

PS: Can't wait for band concert day :D

& lastly, some wise words
"If you always do something with some form of reciprocation in mind, it will always be conditional. That will never lead to happiness because of expectations."

Friday, April 20, 2012

I wanna grow, grow, grow !

Why do i still feel like a kid.?
Why can't i grow up.?

i really feel damn childish..
not being discipline & taking up responsibilities that i should take..
I feel so sucky some times..
but i just continue to lay on the bed & procrastinate >_< ( like now )

Not doing my job as a student to study well..
Not doing my job to learn how to cook.?! seriously! This part of me! I really dk how ppl look at their parents cook then they will help all that.. i just sit on the sofa and wait for my meal.. kitchen... NOT MY PLACE!
i don't even know how to cook rice or porridge -.-

& my sense of direction. I have no motivation to look at the road names when dad drives. i just like to stone, listen to songs, play w my phone on car.. >_<

Never help to do housework other than sweeping & mopping the floor, packing my room & sometimes washing of clothes >_<
what a bad girl i am...
bahahhahahaa...
I want to help.. I need a change.. but where do i start from.? >_<

i am always at the mode of: lazy song
Today i don't feel like doing anything,
i just wanna lay in my bed..
wuu wuu wuu ~

its time for me to grow up, but why can't i.?

ps: thank god quarrel solved.. but.. 一波未平,一波又起~ sighh..

Thursday, April 19, 2012

The Time to Think

I need the time to think.
The time to think how to type out my feelings.
The time to calm myself down best before sunday.
The time to construct a sensible message that can portray my feelings correctly to be sent to you.
The time to think about how to salvage this situation.

But I've got NO TIME.
I am definitely no in the right mind now....
Going to work in the morning tml..
Then going to teach tuition..
Reaching home only to have to prepare my stuff for the day camp on Sat..
Need to reach school by 0745.. WOOHOOOO~!
& i've got no idea what time the camp will end..
& working in the morning on Sunday.......

How do I find the time before I have to face you on sun evening.?
I got no idea..
I can type so many things now..
But I am very sure, I am not in the right state to type that particular message now isn't it.?
Sighh......
我到底该怎么做?

俗话说的好:
Don't promise when you're happy, Don't reply when you're angry, and don't decide when you're sad.
I guess I replied while I was angry..
& since I am sad now, I shouldn't make decision that will just make things worse.. -.-

I really hate tensions & quarrels at such a bad timing..
No amount of sorry can cure this unless both of us really mean it & admit our wrong..
But even if i admit.. will you.?

PS: I hate selfish + inconsiderate + spoilt brats _|_

Wednesday, April 18, 2012

对得起自己吗?

Some things yes, some things no.

Screwed mode.
Idk what to do.
Idk how to salvage this situation.

I am not that independent at all !
I need help some times too !
But you guys doesn't seems to know !!

I think i gotta face that fact that no one will be helping me through this phase.. How much i wish i can run away from here, run away from all the troubles, run away from all the burdens..

To you, I guess I'm really not important.. Its a cruel hard fact whenever i realise i'm not important to people who i think is important to me.. this sucks big time..

I hate this realisation.
so no one shall be important to me anymore.. no one.. no one can break me ever again.. all of you are just a passer-by.

I got no energy to do this now. I'm sorry for what i said. but i still think you're wrong too. I dowan to be so fake to just tell you sorry when i don't mean it.. i guess you won't see this.. but, yah, i'm not important anyway.. I don't want to spoil your day this sunday.. I alr said on whatsapp.. if they didn't take me seriously... i also got no idea what to do.. I need time to figure out how much do i mean to you..

ps: how i wish i could be so selfish too.. enough is enough.. i am very tired, really tired.. & you don't seem to give a fuck about the situation.. so why am i bothering so much?? tell me why.? or is it just that i'm blind too. wished you were here to tell me you know.?

Friday, April 13, 2012

National Kiss Day :3

Yay, kiss your lover,
kiss your mother,
kiss your father,
kiss your brother,
kiss your sister !

ok, whatever..
i believe that even if there is no such occasion, its okay to kiss your love ones!!! :DD

Grab them yooo~!
& if u can, kiss your ass! :P

After all, Friday the 13th isn't that bad at all (:

Friday the 13th

I totally forgot to post abt this when i posted ytd
"today is friday the 13th"
"omgg! fri e 13th"
ok, basically thats what my fb & twitter timeline is all about now.

as for me, i think its pretty lame..
i don't get it definitely... cus i am not so superstitious..
( & pardon me for my typos cus i'm using my phone & i'm on a rocky bus otw to wok )

is today supposed to be unlucky.?
then my bad luck alr started since ytd..
my foundation broke in thousand pieces for no fucking reason! -.-
*heartache x 999999*

& i woke up late again!
plans screwed up!!
& sensitive nose today so jialat !!
& my eyeliner like damn shitty today!! keep erasing & drawing again!!! -.-

but i hope posting a good news will bring me some luck later...
I am going to SAFRA tampines gym to try for the gym counter next monday!

this means that i don't have to come back to jurong to work during school days! heehehe^^

Saving up for my overseas studies yoooo~!
Wish me luck ^^

我们左看,右看,上看,下看

K, so I'm gonna post before I go to bed...
My life is actually like any normal teenagers..
School, lepak, PT jobs, movies, kbox, pool, etc..
Unhealthy lifestyle seriously.. So I guess nobody is interested in my typical teenage life eh.?
Hence, i'd rather find a topic to elaborate on & blog about it..

So today's post is indeed what the title shows!
We look left, look right, look up, look down !
(._. ), ( ._.), ( '_' ), (._.)
Inspired by: Huixian BuBu

“@XianBubu: Why ppl like to look down on ITE students..!? We also humans right! -.-”

Oh why why why?
I stay on the 3rd storey my neighbours upstairs look down on me ! (T_T)
Kidding~

I mean yeah, there are definitely pple who judge, who look down on certain ppl..
& for huixian I know she isn't very fond of pple who *SMOKE*..

So there goes, nothing is fair in this world.
So many singaporeans look down on cheenas, bangladash, etc..
& Cheenas also look down on us don't they?!

In this cruel society:
1) Rich looks down on poor
2) Modeling agencies look down on ugly ppl
3) Uni grads look down on pple who didnt get their certs
4) City pple look down on kampung kias
5) Look down on pple who not virgin
6) Or look down on pple who is virgin (i really dont know yoo!)
7) Look down on handicaps
8) Macho man look down on skinny boy?
9) Tall ppl look down on short ppl?
10) Look down on smoker thinking that they're paikia?
11) smokers look down on you thinking you HUM JI kia?
etc, etc... endless examples for this topic..
sooooooooooooooooooo...
use your imagination yoooooooooo!

But, we don't only look down.
Believe yourself, there are pple that look up on you, admire me..
& there are bound to be pple for you to look up to (:
& duh, we definitely can look left & right... . _ .

& since pictures speaks a thousand words..
& videos consists of thousands of pictures....... I guess.....

This vid is for you: Off the pill - Judgement



PS: I LOVE RYAN HIGA!!! :3 & This vid made me laugh out loud so badly!!! :DD


& most importantly: 
Don't Judge a book by its cover !



Thursday, April 12, 2012

Friendship



I need some enhancements for my friendship.
Am I right about my view of friendship?
Or am I taking my friends for granted?
Or are some of my "friends" taking me for granted?
gahh gahh gahh ~

There's a saying " best friends are the ones that live through your hard times with you. "
I don't need this.. I mean if I have it, then good lah !
But friends like Mandi, Najiha, Cass & Sam~ I don't want them to live it w me!
They got better things to do ok?!

& for this case..
Sometimes, i might need some space,
sometimes i might runaway~
But trust me, i will never forget you...
& it won't take long ~
Selfish ppl, I am not going to sacrifice my time for you..
pple who are just plain lazy themselves to do things & ask me to help them pls fcuk off !
pple who just come and look for me when they need my help, screw off too!
pple who aren't willing to give a bit for our friendship & want me to do everything to salvage it, i am not going to be sucha dog, geddit .?!
pple who says things that don't mean it.. Don't lie to me please..

As long as you listen to my ramblings & talk rubbish w me, I am happy as a lark alr !
:D
I'm easily satisfied okayyyy?!

I am happy to have friends that care for me truly !

How I love ridiculous K box sessions with Huixian !
How I love my cousin cum friend ! 2 in 1 leh ! Ah mei & Tingggggg~! <3
How I love to chat with Meitong yappp yapp ! Mahjoong queen !
How I love Georgina, Nixin, Xiaoxin & Christine!
These girls always stalk me quietly but really came to care for me when im in trouble!
xoxoxo! We really need to go out !!
& many more which im lazy to name but friends who do care for me even though they dont show it !

I thought we vowed.

Went to watch the vow!!
Najiha was crazy over Channing titam?  (idk how to spell )
Keep looking at his abs and BUTTS!!
LOL LOL LOL!
Kayys... & as usual... these girls weep & tear for those scenes..
While I enjoyed the movie in my own point of view (:
its okay, i still enjoyed yoo !

Was supposed to go SA carnival !
but wahhh wtv ! Cass & me saw the amt of crowd there...
we cont our jurney to tampines mall to have texas chicken!
Lovely lunch w her !! :3

I do have to admit that i was quite sad & angry when sam fly us airplane~
Cus she isn't that kind of person...
i'm sure she had her reasons though..
& i am pretty sure i gonna forgive her .. I can't bear to be angry w her for so long la !

So some pix below for the day ! :D




PS: I really love you girls hell loads ! & gratz for PW results ! I'm sure you guys did your best alr !

Wednesday, April 11, 2012

Whats more, it's more than one..


I wish I could disagree with this quote so so much..
Cus I hate selfish people,
I hate pple who don't give a damn about others,
I hate pple who are inconsiderate..

But a part of me have to agree to this..
But I still don't want to lose you cus you don't care......
To face the fact that you don't belong to yourself anymore....
I don't like it..

被宠坏的人,总是那么自我,忽略了身边的人的感受~
被呵护,被在乎的人,就是忘了如何考虑别人~
被攀高的人,只会把错丢给别人,不会承认自己的失误~
自己错了,就装傻,装可爱,然后等别人来安慰,来逗他开心~
你,变了,就不要怪罪与我们~
我们有错么?
你一而再,再而三的甜言蜜语,口是心非的话,认为可以欺上瞒下,天下太平?你大错特错了,你那虚伪的表现令我作呕,让我觉得自己为什么那么笨,被你欺骗了!

我觉悟了⋯⋯不会再傻里傻气的相信了⋯⋯
我失去的,不只是你⋯⋯
因为自私,你得到一倍幸福,我却要失去双分~
对不起,我不应该怪你,可是我想我是自私的⋯⋯

PS:不是我沉默,而是你一点都没有心让我开口⋯⋯

Saturday, April 7, 2012

Im so over you



Don't worry if i'm over you, i'm over you..
I'm so over you.. (you you you you you you)

PS: I really like the chorus, effect really nice :/ But why isn't their dance steps changing & the style of them is like everytime the same.? Getting sick of them :/

Tuesday, April 3, 2012

Secrets

I'm feeling so hyped up now
so focused.
I need to hypnotise myself to be so chiong for the next two years..
& hopefully i can bring my gpa up to 3.4.. yeah, i'm not ambitious.. i'm not aiming to study in nus law or whatsoever, but i just hope that my scores won't be that lousy, & i still have a long way to go ~

CHIONG ARR!!
Now i don't think getting driver's license is that impt anymore. i'm not going to waste petrol like drive myself to school at tampines >_<

I am sure my dad won't decide to move to tamp no matter what. all his businesses are in the west & even if bro graduate from kranji, he gonna pick ite west too. >_<

On a side note, i'm glad all mu scolding worked for glenn !! His scence showed improvement after one month of tuition w me ! Its very sad that i cant really help him that much anymore when he go up to upper sec. I really cant do much by that time. the only reason why i regret nt studying hard during upper sec >_<

As for my bro... I still cant conquer him!! He sucks ttm !!! Always feel like giving up when i help him tuition!! haix.. sighh...

haha, as u can see from the title, secrets.. imma gonna talk about secrets! of course not leaking of secrets.. this one month i think. i found out so many secrets that are deadly if i ever leaked them.

i'm sure each of us have some darkest secrets. i hate to keep my own secrets. make myself like mysterious for fuck??! so i like to say every secrea of mine that i feel that its impt like very lightly so i can cool myself down, not make others worry about me & not make myself full of secrets. lol

but i cfm zip on others' secrets okay.?
but sometimes i feel that its such a burden not being able to tell the involved parties about their secrets.
like if a my friendA unhappy and sad about friendB.. i need to do smth to help them but yet i cant leak out secrets.?! such painful experiences ! Damn sian one u know.? sighh~

ok, now i'm working at jurong safra gym counter staff !! so slackkk..
blogging now seh !
Thinking of weather to go zouk and try try, the pay so tempting siah !!!
lol~

ok, i no mood to blog liao. -.-
byebye!

energy one !

iLight & iDrinkDrankDrunk!

Ok, so bubu uploaded the iLight's photos !


So this beautiful chairs ! you sit under it then will light up ! 
Its really sad cuz I didn't get a chance to sit on the blue one !
Cuz got a old couple sitting there and not gonna leave ! >:(


Ping & me laughing like hell cus two of us had to squeeze !

Ok can, family love ! <33

hahahah! bubu & me tried to take this pic for like a 100x without success! always got EXTRAAA! >:(
So damn funny leh this one !


On a side note, we saw Clem the monkey there :P


Majestic nightview of singapore !! Featuring MBS ! :D hahaha!

Ok, this heart warming bub made of those construction tapes (:
Cool & creative isn't it.?!
All the exhibitions are mostly made from recycled materials ! GO GREEN!
( Yah, i very environmental de hor, you step grass, i box u ! )

Heart warming house (:


WITH AN EVIL GARDENERR ! MEE! >:)



HAPPY BIRTHDAY MEI TONG !!! :DDD

& I shall continue with some pictures that I like !!


Like short hair !!!


Ok can, huixian love this so i shall post :D





& WHILE BUBU WAS AWAY AT CHINAAAA, NAUGHTY BUBU BOY BROUGHT THE INNOCENT PING & ME TO DRINK !!! AWWWW !!! HAHAHA! >_<






& we went to watch WOMAN IN BLACK!!
I got kena scared siah ! Daniel Radcliffe was okay lah! Neve see his body though!


Ridiculous photoshoot before movie ! :P