Merry Xmas & Happy New Year (:

Blog is really outdated with my events and everything.
Been really busy this holiday. (Partly because this holiday is way too short)
Worked for straight 7 days.

Being alone at home never felt so good. And today's break comes with me ditching work this morning. Down with flu still.. I need to get better so that I can have fun (supposedly) at the countdown chalet. Things have not been going really well this holiday. FML & WTF flying through  my mind almost every single day.. so.. generally, still unhappy.. Sigh.. Nothing can cheer me up actually, nothing.

This post is to end this year. I suppose this would be the last post of the year, cuz I really have no time to blog. I havent even update Najiha's birthday celebration pictures lehh /:

To summarise things:

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The celebration of Najiha's birthday. Spent the noon at Strictly pancakes with the girls (: Joey, Mandi, Sam, Cass & of course Najiha (: Then the night at swensens ion plus the guys !! (:

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121212! Its my test day on OB! But Chirs & me went to catch SM TOWN LIVE IN TOKYO 3D in the theatre at tampines! hehe ^^ Love TVXQ <3 Of course all the artists too ~ Like Shinee, BoA~

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Seoul Garden with classmates to celebrate Agatha's birthday ^^
Then Play Nation with badminton ppl ! KINECT WAS GOOD~! Muscle aching like mad the next dayy...  Then they had sakae sushi buffet while Daphne & me watch only cuz I was still full from seoul garden.. After that pool at timah for awhile, then HOMEEE

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A werewolf boy with xiaoxin, nixin & christine <3
This movie is good (: The three girls cried like mad :'( Their poor jongki :(

Then Astons with team (: Nice food (:

Then I spent the night at Clarke Quay with Meitong & AhMei ! <3 Sweetest ! In love with Martell with mixtures hahahaha <3

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Family day~ Watched the Hotel Transylvania with Ting (: Such a cute movie (:

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Genting Baby (:
Genting trip with the gang. What more can I say? I enjoyed the trip a lot, even though the lack of sleep was killing me on the inside >:( Thanks Jingpeng for planning the trip and treating first day karaoke ^^ Thanks Swine for treating 2nd day karaoke! Happy! :D

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Chinese Zodiac 12 with Sixian & Weiling ! :D
JACKKY CHANNN~! WUUUU HAAA!

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Xmas celebration at xiaoyee's house <3
Family love (: Hehe, I realise how long i've not seen Jovie, she've grown so much (: Sorry bbg, I also dk why am I so busy nowadays :( Imy a lot de ok? Don't blame yiyi :( & thanks my aunts and cousin for the xmas prezzies! Its the thought that counts <3

I guess these are the outings that I remember..
I know this post is really boring.. But I guess its just to help me remember some friends, some events and some memories (: Cuz even when people go, memories and feelings still remains :*
Everything is gonna be alright :3

PS: 希望能找到活下去的理由～

One year

What was I doing this time, last year?

Oh, I remembered..

Oh, I love that memory..

Oh, I am just gonna keep it with me.. Forever..

Because #YOLO,

because I gave so much to make her happy,

because I won't have the chance to do it again,

because nothing will be the same again,

because I choose to be negative now,

because I chose to walk this path alone,

because I decide on avoidance and depression and,

because I don't know anything anymore..

PS: 与其说我不想见到你，不如说是我不知道该怎么面对你 :(

Blackalogy Nothing hurts more than being disappointed by the single person you thought would never hurt you. 12 12 12 2:29 PM

12.12.12

A date to remember,
but not a day to remember.

Day by day,
week by week,
month by month,
maybe even year by year?

PS: This is the worst, neither heaven nor hell.. /:

I love you with an I love you

Sometimes we can't treat others the way way they treat us.. And sometimes we just cannot reply an iloveyou with an iloveyou /:

Nth is going into my head now thats why i'm here /: Hope Dad is reaching soon so that I can go home. Sitting down here at hollandv's coffee bean, with rows of bars on my right blasting party musics, I... am... so... jealous of pple who are not having exams now !!! This is a place full of fun, joy, laughter, peace, anger & tears |: Oh how I miss those days? Haha.. Having a little hope that I will wake up one day with everything remaining the same? Wishful thinking me /: As if time will rewind.?! /: Things aren't ever gonna be the same again.. haha dkdc (:

Yeah. & Ive got to wrap up november on my blog !!! Anw JIAYOU TO MYSELF FOR ONE MORE WEEK :D

PS: Just because you can’t understand something, it doesn’t mean it’s wrong. –Arthur (The Sword in the Stone)

3 more hours :(

3 more hours of sleep left yet I am here.. Cuz I can't fall asleep..
And I am thinking the reason is because I am too angry >:(
I was looking forward to today since last week.. But.. Things just don't go my way yea?
Today its not about my point of view of anything.. Its just me, myself and I.. Its just about my life.. Complaints and unhappiness.. A life thats not interesting for you to care about..

Pretty pissed off at the class work and everything just don't seem to go well ! :( After today I feel that I should just shut up, stop talking and giving any ideas.. ya, I should just say I cannot make it then you won't feel pekcek and upset isn't it.? I shouldn't even give up my time to go.. Ya, its me that wanna go, its not you guys that want me to go isn't it.? I go or don't go also the same what.. Its becoming a habit.. If I can make time for people, I will do it, no complaints no nothing.. I don't expect any gratefulness but you don't criticise me ok.? Hey, Idk if I am taking things too seriously or what.. But, I have feelings too okay.? It sucks when my close friends just doubt me like nobody business.. Dejecting, demoralising and hurting.. Ok lor, my taste for shows sucks, my taste for guys sucks, my taste for books sucks, my taste for food sucks, my taste for games sucks, my taste for clothing sucks, my taste for everything sucks, my skills for everything sucks ok?! Happy?! My choice of words sucks, my ideas sucks, the activities I like sucks, the music I like sucks, the places I go to sucks.. Everything about me just sucks ok?! OKAY?! Whatever you do and have is the best la ok?! You make the best decision and you have the best taste.. I shouldnt give my opinion to anything anymore cuz my opinion won't even be taken into account.. "Aiya, shiman say one cannot be trusted, shiman do one cannot be trusted" Yeah, I guess I just cannot be trusted.. Cuz everything about me is so lousy, lousy beyond words.. I should give up, give up trying to find pple to do the things I like with me.. Cuz nobody likes them..

Idw this anger to win and overwhelm me..
I want to tell myself you don't mean it and everything.. but I just cant..
Not once, not twice, but its so frigging obvious about your attitude towards me..
ya, ppl tickle me I get scared and I fidget is my fault.. yah my fault. I am the one thats childish. Ok can, you damn mature, you damn fucking mature. yeah right. -.- & how you criticise on ppl's dressing, please look at yourself first.. I cannot stand it anymore.. You wear that.. It doesn't even look legit ok -.- Damn and I realise I talk rubbish when I am tired.. When I go gaga, I make ppl angry too.. Daphne got angry with me on whatsapp ytd... Sigh.. ya, cuz I talk rubbish when Im tired, hungry.. Rant and rant and rant.. I needa sleep :(

And to someone, ‎"I am not the one you want right now and maybe I never will be. Of course it hurts to think of it this way but there is no use pretending otherwise. Whatever happens, I just hope you will find someone who makes you smile every day. Someone who will challenge you to be a better person, someone who will open your heart and your mind and your eyes, someone who will deserve you and everything that you are." I pity you a lot cuz you don't know your worth.. Or maybe you think too highly of others.. Ask yourself, are you really a better person now? I don't think so my dear >_<

PS: I REALLY DON'T KNOW WTF YOU PEOPLE HAVE IN YOUR F-ING MINDS.