Walk, shop, eat !

Went to take pay with meitong then walk walk around orchard !

Went Ion Sho Teppan to had our lunch/dinner then to scape to but her stuff (:

Then continue to walk around, rest a bit here and there.. Slack my day away w her (:

Got myself a new sunglass, been wanting to cuz the old one is a reminder of good memories that will not happen again ! Time to move on with my life ! Love it without me !

<3

Sunglass & Eiffel tower crop tee ^^ 

Sho Teppan (:

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Have not been focusing on my life properly :(

I banged my head into a glass wall.. & its still hurting whenever i accidentally touch my head !

I really need to be less clumsy :(

Naive, innocent, gullible, forgiving, blur, clumsy..

Now with the addition of warmhearted, careless, trustworthy..

Idk how some people don't want people to hurt them yet they in turn hurt you themselves!

pretending so much that basically you are just a liar yourself..

I got nothing to say to you anymore.? Cuz you just don't make any sense!!!

Its like you know someone is handicapped yet you want them to kick soccer -.- Shame on you!

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PS: O$P$ !!!!! >:(

Only One

BoA - Only One (Jason Chen English Cover) 

The lyrics just makes my heart ache :(

Even though you've never loved me, you're the only one

Even though you've really hurt me, you're the only one

How could I ever get over a love I never knew

I guess I'm still just a fool, you're the only one, the only one

I don't know how you make me feel this way

Never knew my heart could feel such pain

Why won't you just give me a chance to show I love you

Every time we try to talk, you just walk out the door

But every time I try to let you go, my heart holds onto you

No matter what I say or what I do, I feel like such a fool

Even when you lie right to my face, I wish that they were all true

I guess you just really wanna leave, so I'll let you go

How can I get you out my head, you're the only one

You will always be my baby, you're the only one

Even though you've never loved me, you are still my queen

I'm just a fool who's in love, you're the only one, the only one

I haven't felt your touch in so long, and the image of your smile is long gone

Did all the memories that we had shared mean nothing to you?

You lead me on, you broke my heart

So why can't I get over you?

Oh every time I try to let you go, my heart holds onto you, my heart holds onto you

No matter what I say or what I do, I feel like such a fool

Even when you lie right to my face, I wish that they were all true

I guess you were never mine, so why do I care?

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PS: Even the best one cannot be compared to the only one. Till you become the only one (:

Zoo & Law Camp (:

ZOO TRIP WITH THE TEAM (07092012) :D

A day spent w them:

Not going to spam this post with pictures of animals yoo..
Going anywhere is fine as long as its with them..
Idk how to voice my love for this group of people..
More and more of us might not be playing badminton now.. but nevertheless, we are still bonded (:
Welcome kohyuxuan back (:

LAW CAMP 2012 (10/11 09 2012)

Had fun being a progger !! Programmer !
Have nice programmer heads like Clement & Georginaaaa <3
It was tiring and to be sleeping in e same room with a cockroach or maybe cockroaches, HELL FOR ME :(( but nevertheless I feel great when I followed the campers around the first day cus they were all so highhhhh ! & Water games at my station was really exciting tooo ! <3

Halete, the empire I was following (:

Committee shirt ! (:

Reflective Day

Time pass so slow and so fast at the same time..

Today just past like this. Really just like this!
Woke up from a dream, again -.-

Met Euroy for lunch and went library to search for books to keep my mind busy.. Ended up on a book that I find really bimbotic, but the fictional characters did their part for me to lose myself in their fictitious world that I lost track time and reality [: Reached home only at about 7.30pm and now its 10 alr.. Just what the hell did I do today.?? But I guessed I had a relaxing day chilling at lot one (:

SMbeyondbluesky Friends are invaluable as listening ears, till they venture well-intentioned advice. 12 09 12 6:25 PM

True that.? There might be exceptional cases but personally, I think,  those are really rare cases.. Friends can give you encouragement but advices, I think we all already know our situation before consulting them don't we.? We are just clinging onto some virtual hope that some things might work out. All in all it's better to hope than to despair isn't it.? But when too many hopes lead to despair, and when disappointment reached its maximum, it's time to let go (:

Many times, when we say we don't know what to do, we already got the answer in our mind, its just that we're still hoping, hoping that we need not make the tough choice and there would still be a happy ending. But truth is, this world don't work like this. It's not always a give and take. Life is never fair, so stop expecting a balance world. 2 sentences that really prove my train of thoughts:

"If you expect the world to be fair with you because you are fair with them, it is like expecting a lion not to eat you because you don't eat lions..."

"And if you still believe ignorance is bliss, then you can also believe you can wish upon a star, for real..."

Do we really all get what we deserve.?? Are you sure that no efforts are wasted.?? Just because we don't get what we want after putting in the effort, we whine and sob our life away.?? No sense at all.. There will be times where you lose out, its just how much.. There will be times where you will be taken advantage of, but, ask yourself, are you sure you did all you can to prevent that from happening.? Or did you just let others took advantage of you.. Sometimes, we knew that others are taking advantage of us but we just accept it and shrug our shoulders don't we.? Thinking that maybe that someone will be grateful to us and do us a favour in the future.. And sometimes we just feel for others, just too nice to reject their favour, to be angry at them.. Sadly, these are just humans' nature.. :<

PS: I need encouragements so badly :( 

What I should be doing

Nothing (:

Just broke camp this evening and finally using my lap-top again now (:
Crashing real soon yepp !
Gonna post about Zoo trip & Law camp soon ! (:

When you are all wounded, a hug is like a plaster protecting you (:
多少个舍不得，多少个不值得？自己衡量看看～
哦哦哦哦哦哦哦哦哦～

Hurt is an understatement /:

Thank you for showing me that..

Thank you for letting me know what a fool I had been..

Thank you for still scolding me and forcing me to buck up..

What happened on 18092011, I guess I will never forget it..

And the subsequent incidents that hurts as much or even more..

I promise you I will try to face these with a smile, I will ok.?

I want to be like you strong and brave, like how you asked me to fuck off in my face(:

I may not agree with you choice/decision, but I will not judge you..

Do what you want, don't be wavered by me(:

Love you more(: Hehe(:

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Feel so left out by them..

Called them to plan things out, end up change of plans also nv tell me..

Make me look like a fool to still be asking them about the actual plan..

I know they don't mean it, but I still feel kind of hurt :(

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Regretted forgoing qsn's ecp outing today..

Reason.? I guess I shall keep this to myself..

Kinda miss my qsn's mates :(

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I am filled with disappointment really..

Super pain :( 

PS: Making the right choice is never easy, but its better than making a wrong move that betrays all the morals which involves betraying the ones you love and yourself (':

Just like you never left~

Yes, we're welcoming you just like you never left (:

Yes, you're still welcome to join us anytime kohyuxuan(:

It's been awhile, you know that and we all know that.. Its been around one year since you abandoned us and go with your girlfriend.. We might be angry once but nevertheless we still welcome you back to this team, anytime (: Hope that like what you say, things will get better and better.. I believe that humans can have both relationship and friendship at the same time.. We're this greedy, and we are able to handle it (: Family too ^^

Never let go of your relationship cus of your friends and never let go of your friends cus of your relationship too.. Most importantly, your family, cherish them to the max (:

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And to SamanthaTanWanTing, thanks la?

I know you don't want mushy words and stuffs.. 

But yah lah, you know I won't judge you cuz of what happened to you la..

And haha I also hope that you won't judge me for whatever I had done before.. whatever I tweet, whatever i blog and whatever i decide to do..

maybe you find what I do ridiculous at times, but thanks for always taking my nonsense..

And now I know I am very important to you too, I feel honoured (:

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Don't assume that I'm not in pain just because you can't see it..

I can tell you straight in the face that I am fcuking hurt by everything..

If not for those that are still around me, I'd have died on the inside..

They are people I should be happy for.. But now I am not.. I feel so bad for them..

I dowan to go out with my friends with a black face !!! >:(

They shouldn't be taking on my sadness just cuz I cannot get over some things !!

I should, will, must be happy for them ! (:

Why are you doing this to me.?? 

You don't act what you say.. and it hurts me so much..

If you don't mean what you say, please just don't say it..

Mean what you say and say what you mean.. Don't play w my mind..

You know I am stupid, I won't know when do you mean it and when r u kidding..

"The worst goodbyes are those that are left unspoken and unexplained"

It's okay, no explanation is needed.. Worst goodbyes, not one but two,  I can handle them.. 

It's okay, I will make it through.? Life still goes on no matter what..

I might not be that happy shiman anymore but I will continue with my life..

I might be like now, always losing focus, bang into pillar till I got a bruise, can't cross the road properly, losing focus at all the things I do.. But, mehh, the Earth is still rotating and the time still tics..

It's okay, just let the pain numb the pain, everything will pass eventually..

You say relationships come and go, I say friends too.. 

Some friends are just those that you gradually lose contact..

Some.... you just have to let go of them.....

It's really hard for me to hate anyone,

so maybe subconsciously if I want to push someone away, I would make them hate me, find me annoying and then let them be the one that pushed me away.. Then I would be the one feeling sad.. So ironic.. but i guess this is me.?? Can't change.. Cus you shouldn't be feeling any pain for me, I can handle the pain and I shall handle it (:

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PS: I will find my path to happiness. I just want someone who cares and love me the way I am.. Someone who uds that I will never leave my friends, someone who will appreciate what I am willing to do for another to get them to be happy.. Someone who will really protect me, keep me safe and sound instead of making use of my "kindness".. 

B2L02 Class Chalet & thoughts |:

Just settled down after Chalet and a slacky meet-up with the badminton team (:
So here I am giving an update about my life once again..

03092012: Imperfect + SAKAE SUSHI

Caught the Singapore movie w PS, WL & SX @ JP (:
Seriously, Singapore actors needs some major "polishment" to their acting skills.
Look at how the Hongkong and Taiwan actors act ! AWESOME !
Dk how they do it, but their acting is seriously good compared to out actors.. Seems like singapore really needs to buck up in this media aspect.
Edwin Goh is not handsome to me!!! >:( I DON'T CAREEE !
& haha had Bento lunch with Sixian, PeiShan & Weling ! Good!


After movie, we slacked and had some dessert at this shop called lucky dessert, not nice at all :(
Then I head to Scape to meet my cousys & Loriane to have SAKAE buffet for dinner..
Tbh, I was so full that I was gonna pukeeeee :( But still, had a fairly pleasant time with them (:

04092012-06092012: B2L02 CLASS CHALET

It was rather a slack chalet, relax, chill & slack everyday (:
I kinda, talk/eat/sleep/drink my time away ! Haha, really enjoy it ! So relaxing for me !
Didn't make the wrong choice by going, hehe totally worth it (:
So, it started.... by trolling me...
All of them were at fairprice yet they asked me to help them but things from fairprice..
Being the gundoo me who doesn't buy things from fp, I was so focus at looking for the stuffs they asked me to help them buy that I didn't notice they were all there /: TROLLING TOTALLY SUCCESSFUL.. Melvyn had to pretend to bang into me before I realise anything /:

So, Chan, Mel, YY, Cherie, Clement, Kaywee, Gibson, WeiChiat, Nargis & me headed back to chalet after buying all our stuffs ! (: Then Jastine, Delphine & Wengloong came to join us later !
First night was just purely playing games & drinking! Chivas is not my type although its still better than Vodka /: Haha, I got Chan to help me buy Corona, one of my fave beer (:

Dk who suggested playing confession game where each of us have to talk about things that nobody else knows.. everybody got teary and agitated.?? Hmmm.. And Clement got really HIGHHHHH ~ ! WengLoong was damn high, & HE DID NOT DRINK EVEN A SIP! HE WAS JUST PLAIN CRAZYYYYYYYY!!!! haha,  i drank quite a lot, felt like puking, but blehh I am just not those that get high after drinking lol, i just feel SEH SEHHH~~~ Anw we finished the black label & Chivas on the first night..

Slept around at 8am.. Jastine was really getting so comfy cus we were cuddling tgt.. hahaha, super cute girl.. she got so high cus we're all gonna sleep tgt !!!

2nd day, I was practically asleep ,altho I woke up in the noon to eat and talk cock, till 6pm..
Hahaha, Agatha, Nargis, Jamina, Kimberly & Ashley came! Mr.Looi tooo !
HE IS REALLY COOOOOL YOOOOO ! :DD hehehee ^^
Thanks Mr.Looi for all the help and teaching me how to peel prawns ! (:
hahaha, totally you know? This is the first time i peel  prawns, raw ones some more ! Pretty cool uh.?
Then they started the Vodka.. (NOT FOR ME)
Jastine GOT SUPERRRR HIGHHHH LAAAAA!

Happy Brirthday Jastine Yew Pei Fang ! See I can rmb your chinese name so clearly now after you repeat & repeat ! hahahaha ! She got really crazy! Part of it cuz wengloong poured loads of vodka into her coke ! >_< 

Some pics from Chalet:

Then we talked and sleep !

Woke up to check out and I headed straight to KSS to have lunch with the badminton team (:
kekekeke, pretty nice time spend with them (:
While going home from lot still saw Hongkai ! My sister siah ! Huggies ! His hugs forever a comfort to me cus he always looks so happy to me !! (:

Then had a long chat with xian at her house downstairs, cool, this is life man (:

Heading to the ZOO with the team tml, hope everything will go smoothly and we will have a good time!

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Haha, I am thinking about what to think! Anw, chalet really helped me to get past these 3 days(:
Its good to have classmates like this (:
This week is crawling by like months, and idk why.. maybe I know? haha

I really appreciate my friends, family and everyone that cares.. I really do.. Trust me..
I hate to lose friends, I hate it.. I am someone who don't mind putting my 100% effort just to get 1% of your return.. But definitely, my love is not unconditional.. If I feel that you are not treating me right even at the very least, I WILL BOX YOU! I think of my friendship with this friend.. I feel kind of satisfied you know.? Ta didn't like me at first, cus I am like out of Ta de league.. Its like Ta is always with those popular pple and maybe I am like the kampung girl.?! hahaha, but now, we are hanging out tgt sometimes we are like kampung kids and sometimes we are like the city kids ! LOL ! Its really magic and fate that we from totally different background came together and become friends.. Altho our perspective might not always be the same and we quarrel, i think its always the SUA SUA that keeps our friendship going. hehe ^^

Ya, when you choose to let things go and not harp on it, true friendship (:
Sometimes I really don't understand people who keeps complaining about their already so perfect life.. Why, just why are you so hard to be satisfied.? I really don't understand ok!
Always see this on my timeline, eating maggie again, mom didn't cook, #foreveralone at home.. OMG, BITCH PLEASE! ITS NOT LIKE YOUR MOM DON'T CARE ABOUT YOU! She still makes sure you have your food and that you're full right.? I myself almost didn't have any home-cooked food for the whole of my sec sch life cus my mom works night shift.. I had to settle my dinner everyday myself.. Don't be sucha toot to complain about ridiculous things ok.?! Count your blessings ! You're so much luckier than so many people, those that are starving, those w/o parents, and many many more.. People are envy of you yet you're living in self-pity where you feel that the whole damn world is against you and nobody is treating you right.?!

I rly don't like comparing.. But damn.. Your life is already not bad, thats all I wanna say.. Most singaporeans, our lives are alr not bad alr !!!!

Friends that care.. So many.. yet some people can choose to push the friends away and then blame them for not caring about yourself..? Omg.. Seriously don't get it.. You choose to let pple go, then you blame pple for leaving you.. Please stop blaming things on everyone else, you are partly to be blame too.? Sigh, I am so sad seeing potato girl troubled over her friendships problem.. Wish I could help, but haha, I guess I just need to be there when she needs me.?? (:

Self-pity.? Do you think you're some snow white or Cinderella.?? -___-
You're the princess that's so loved by some many, yet you dk how to appreciate !

I promise, not to blame myself anymore !
I will forgive, to get over me, myself & I first ! 
Day by day, will things get better ?? /:

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Anw, to KL..
It's okay.. I am sure you will not be friendzoned by all the girls in this world..
Some girl out there will appreciate you as a boyfriend.. 
This kind of thing, cannot rush one, when it comes, it will come..
You will be a suitable husband for your future wife (:
Don't be so down now.. If you did your best, then its ok alr ! 
Things don't always work out, but at least tried and did what you think was right to do (:
Go for it ! Always supporting you !! (:

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PS: Everybody should smile (:

SPAMZXC~!!!

Moments of my life |:

18082012

1. Greg's 21st Birthday Celebration (:

My cousins! Lol, my photos with him not yet uploaded so this is Ryan on the left and Greg on the right! Navy army boy celebrated his 21st birthday with le family! <3 its a nice simple gathering with my cousins and families! xoxo! Hope he can make through his NS soon! He is having a tough time in there yahhh!! Happy Birthday once again!

2. KBOX SESSION(:

#OOTD

Kbox was really cold, shivering like mad..

Clement sang the whole night while MeiTong & me took turns..

20082012: Expendables 2

Quite a gore movie >:(

I hate abusing scenes! This movie scare the hell outta me >:(

25082012

1. Meet up with my old friend (:

Meet KL for lunch at JCube! Had Chilis, was frigging full ! Thats why we took a walk to Singapore Discovery Centre and LOL, we had fun taking pictures at the kinetic garden! yoyoyo!

2. Raya at Afiqah's house!

So after lunch, went Afi's house to have a curry dinner! Selamat Hari Raya! 

Finally a meet up with all the girls like seriously! (: Has fun slacking around at Afi's (:

Relaxing and chill time (:

Didn't took much photos though, lol.

30082012: End of exams, out to Science Centre!

LOL, something at the Westside finally! So I brought my girls around Jurong this day!

We went to Science Centre, OMG THE LIVE COCKROACHES! SCARE THE HELL OUT OF ME!!!! >:( WANTED TO DIE & XIAOXIN STILL CANNOT STOP DISTURBING ME :(

It's kind of like a birthday celebration for Xiaoxin(2608) & Georgina(0109), though there is no official celebration with cakes or whatsoever, its really enjoyable! It's just that we were all so tired after exams, and my mood was kinda lowww :(

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY TWO PRINCESSES!! HEHE^^

Christine Peh haven't upload photos!! :((

My day with them:

Omni theatre! IMAX educational movie: To the Artic (:

It's touching, polar bears are dying and I am here blogging..

Ok, I wish I could do more to help reduce global warming.. but sighh, humans..

I give up.. we had fun walking around (: Can't wait for the photos to be uploaded (:

01092012

Sixian stayed over at my house the previous night after celebrating her classmate's bday at MBS! (holy, i want to go see see too!) Then we woke up, had awesome breakfast, went yewtee to have our lunch then she went to cut my hair with me!! (: hehe, finally cut my fringe back to bangs even though i think it's a bit short! Then we went back yewtee to meet Cass & Mandi who were studying at Mac.. LOL, i went to disturb them a bit then both of us went home! Then start to prepare for the night! Ahma's bday and chill out at Boat Quay (:

1. Ahma's 62nd birthday mini celebration at Food Lion!

Ahma didn't want to put candles !! |:

#OOTD

BANGS!!! (:

With my grandma! <3

2. Boast Quay: RedDot Brewhouse

Mood was low. Damn low. Wanted to cry. No. Actually cried.

Didn't drink much though.. maybe like a glass of beer..

Shirley temple there not very nice :( 

I need to cheer up! Emo what siah !!

Night street 

My shirley temple and ahmei's drink (:

From where I sat (:

02092012: Step Up Revolution

Had Mos Burger with PeiShan & SiXian for dinner (:

Then movie with Weiling, Afiqah & Peishan (:

Not bad, not bad (:

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Keeping myself busy busy!

Tomorrow, Imperfections with the badminton girls, sakae dinner with my cousys, midnight kbox with MeiTong & linfang.. Tue-Thu B2LO2's Class Chalet. Fri, Zoo with badminton Gang (: It's good that I have plans for this week, I am going to make it ! (: Need to plan out my calendar (: