孤单心事

美丽的歌声，悲哀的歌词，让我感触好多好多～

雨下在我窗前　玻璃也在流眼淚
街上的人都看起來　比我幸福一點
用寂寞來測驗　還是最想要你陪
曾一起走過的夏天　我常常會夢見

我猜不到你真正的感覺
思念寫成臉上的黑眼圈
有的時候我寧願　你對我壞一點
無法停止幻想我們的永遠

愛你是孤單的心事　不懂你微笑的意思
只能像一朵向日葵在夜裡默默的堅持
愛你是孤單的心事　多希望你對我誠實
一直愛著你　用我自己的方式

我在你的心裡　有沒有一點特別
就怕你終究沒發現　我還在你身邊

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什么都不明白，什么都不了解。
心里有千千万万个疑问可是就是找不到答案！
究竟是我傻？还是这世界太复杂？
现在的我真的好像个笨蛋，等着别人给我答案。
好想弄明白，好想有个清净的脑袋，好想拥有平静啊～
PEACE, that hard ?

Because I Care ~

Always care too much,

and it hurts so much..

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No where to go anymore :(

Haish :(

Terrible weeks..

Day after Day.. I blame myself for being such a coward, not being able to face you straight in the face.. Looking at all your tweets but not daring to approach you.. Till you approach me, come and cared for me.. Rushed to my house cuz you knew I was crying badly.. You knew, you asked, I don't have the face to lie to you.. I couldn't do it.. You told me not to disappoint you, you told me to tell you what you wanted to hear.. You told me that it wasn't my fault.. But you end up hating me.. Why? I don't uds..

Disappointment, is when you expect something from that someone.. And that someone have to crush your hopes, dreams and wishes.. I expected, i hoped, but it all led to despair.. Still, I want to believe.. Always keeping the faith, hoping that from now on, the faith i held on will bring smiles to faces and shine the path ahead of us..

Some people disappoint me once and once again.. But I know I am a disappointment to some people too.. I was too weak.. Unable to contain my guilt and feelings to myself.. I am sorry to disappoint you.. I can understand if you hate me..

I thank everyone who tried to cheer me up, asked me to stay strong, my classmates, my princesses and everyone else.. It's tough these weeks and I can only imagine it getting tougher day by day.. But I promised myself that I'd try, try to walk down this path on my own, w/o the guidance and naggings that were always there by both of them.. Imy, and I will be here if you need me anytime :(

SO MAD >:(

I feel you >:(

Please don't leave me

She wanted to leave, she was so determined..

You held her back and wavered her thoughts..

Then she promised. She promised not to leave you already..

Don't hurt her, don't make her regret..

She can't take anymore of this.. 

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Hope that we can be really honest to each other..
Just like before.. No holding back to our feelings anymore (':
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Are you going to disappoint me ?? :'(

And so...

And so.. here I am running from revising MBS again.. with my wet hair and my new specs O_O
On a random note, I really need to cut my bangs O_O
So I walked home from pending today.. 50 mins flat of brisk walking..
Just mindlessly following the tracks of the LRT (: I didn't lost myself ! (:

Had a good and long chat with my babee MeiTong ytd.. (: Another happy moment (:
And today marks the last submission of all my projects for this Sem (:
Presentation for Sociology was Okay I guessed, & I got a B for my Socio essay /:
I had good group members which I am thankful for & they are greatly appreciated of course (:

Haha, all of us look so guai here with Ms Laurinda on the left (:

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& now, a time for my random thoughts & rantings.. If you are sick of my thinkings, just gooo..

She said, if Ta don't put in effort, why must you go and contact Ta & make Ta feel important.?? I think & I think.. Am I wrong to hover around Ta.?? I thought friends were supposed to care about each other when the other is down.?? I began to doubt myself.. Maybe Ta is better without us.. Ta don't seems to want us in Ta de life anymore.. Sigh, now, I am even afraid to approach Ta because of all these thoughts.. & maybe it's AhJin's fault too.. (._.) Cus AhJin always say I am damn noisy & irritating.. :P

Began to feel like a nuisance, like an unwanted, like an extra, like a bother..

All these negative feelings adding onto one another..

Now towards you, I feel the same way too.. I just feel so sorry.. 

Sorry for feeling this way.. Sorry for being so doubtful of you & myself..

Am I intruding your life.? Am I disturbing you life.?

I am so afraid that I am.. But yet, if I really am, pls tell me the truth, I will leave quietly before you even notice it..

I really don't want to relive those times again..

Rmb those times when I lost a friend who was so damn part of my daily life alr.. Ta was alr my xi guan, my everyday kind of thing.. yet one day, Ta just disappear into thin air.. I really don't want to face this again :(

Talking to Georgy enlightened me a lot.. But here I am once again, doubting if what I did was right.. Am I even at the right place now.?? I am afraid its just me that wants this, not everyone wants it.. Sighh.. 

NDP'12 & GANG

NDP'2012 (09082012)
My first National Day spent with classmates (:
I woke up exceptionally late that day cus the night before I was "studying" w Weiling & Peishan at HollandV's bucks.. Supposedly though..

All of us (:

The Cheeky us :B

& a really nice collage done by Cherie <3

Bursts of Fireworks (:

Everything was great, it was a great chill out day with my lovely classmates <3

Poor Delphine lost us halfway.. Reminds me of how I am so afraid to get lost.. Cuz I got no sense of direction !!! Haha, Delphine ! We won't leave you alone dehh ! We will remember you ! (: 

We were all starving when we finally walk over from MBS to Raffles Place. Had Mos Burger & everybody headed home (:

It was definitely a memorable day for me, I never find such good spot to watch fireworks for NDP before.. year after year, I would much prefer to sit at home and enjoy the public holiday.. Watching the live telecast on my comfy sofa (: But this year, there I am, watching the fireworks, every blast shook me (: Showing that Singapore, although small, have a mighty side too (:

Loving Singapore, our home. I cannot express my love for my homeland, I feel great in Singapore.. I will never think of migrating to another country where I am a complete stranger to.. Singapore keeps me as safe as possible alr.. (Rmbing how I lost my phone at genting again) If I have the capability, I would do something, anything for this country, but haha, I am not that good laaa ~ Nevertheless,  iloveyou Singapore plue whoever & whatever you're made up of (: Its us that makes this place worthy for us (:

When I look up at the fireworks my country gave me, I pretended that they were shooting stars and prayed for peace.. May peace be with Singapore, may peace be with me & may peace be with everyone..

JS, DANIU & HL'S BDAY (12082012)

Idk the actual dates for their bday & hanlei didn't turn up too >_<

But.. hehe.. We still had a great time..

Happy birthday to the birthday boys (:

Times like these, I would exchange most of my things for it..

To sit around the long bench, digging up old stuffs & talking about absolutely useless stuffs..

Its just so comfortable around them.. Maybe we know each other for sucha long time that everything seems so natural.. I don't need to act one feminine in front of them (: 

To be able to just sit there and wait for the guys to bbq food for me ! <3 haha ! LOVE IT !

I am willing to help them order the food, book chalet, whatsoever, as long as I don't need to cook !

As time goes by, I wonder how many of us will remain. They are alr part of my life.. We might only see one another once per month or even lesser, but again, its consistent as of now. I really hope that as many of will remain here, talk about nothing and laugh about everything. I will never want to let this gang go. Even tho I am not close to many of them, its just the retardness that keep things going.. When the guys get girlfriends one by one, when we get attached one by one, when they enter the army to serve our country one by one, that is then the real test of the goodness of this friendship..

I will try my best to go for the genting trip at this end of year before some of you enter the army (:

US (:

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Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky like shooting stars, 

I could really use a wish right now, wish right now, wish right now..

The Question.

I went back to tumblr a few post todayy..
I reblogged this picture..
I looked back a few posts..
& I saw that I reblogged this before !!

I guess this just shows how much i understand this world.. I really don't uds this world.. There must be something wrong with it.. Or rather, there is something wrong with me.?? /:

Been letting my thoughts run wild & free.. I need this kind of alone time a lot.. Really.. Every time when I take those long journey buses, every time i pen down my thoughts, every time I tweet, every time I blog.. If I don't have that kind of time, I think I might as well be dead. It gives me time to think about whats right or wrong in life and calm myself down while facing this chaotic world.. I guessed especially these few days.. I've been thinking a lot a lot.. Even got that insomnia again.. ._. But right now, I feel peaceful... May peace be with me..

Twitter, blog, tumblr, facebook or whatever... They are not places where we should just rant randomly.. Ok, if you rant, when pple ask you, you should answer ! These online sites can never replace friends.. Real friends. Where you can tell them your problem and they will comfort you, advise you & give you encouragement.. Never will these replace my friends (:

"I  L U"

We were randomly taking pics this noon during break !

Chris notice that our fingers goes I L U ! ^^

My Candy Hearts !! I LOVE YOU ! <3 AiAis !

Can't be so happy today w/o you two ! <3

But still, I have no mood to blog about national day & The Gang's BBQ now /:

Shag, sleepy, can't find the info I need /:

其实很爱你

Primary School time song (:

张韶涵 - 其实很爱你

离开不会太悲伤
有些心情该释放
直到眼泪它自己落下
才发现骗不了自己
其实很爱你
现在学着去遗忘
躲开有你的地方
回忆被谁放在书架上
把他从最高的地方落下
感动越是深刻
寂寞就越伤人喔
每个人的心里都
会有一段伤痕
像白纸的天真
仿佛被你伤得好深
相爱不需要理由
离开也没有理由挽留

NDP'2012 !
Happy 47th Birthday Singapore (:
Loving Singapore, Our Home (:
Will have a more detailed post on this when I have the mood/time (:

Preety fireworks, preety people ! xoxo ! <3

Bliss..

"Happiness is not found at the end of the road, it is experienced along the way. So take not for granted each moment of your life and you will find a reason to be happy each day."

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To this beautiful bride,
We most probably will not cross path again..
But still, I congrats you for meeting the man of your life..
All the best in your future endeavors (': 

BingBongB'day :D

For my previous post,
do like their facebook page:
http://www.facebook.com/pages/MandiDelvinaAmandaGlenn/294021873979800
I'm sure there will be more covers when Mandi's A level ends right.?? ^^

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Tonight, I wanna thank Euroy for being concern about me..
Sorry for ranting rubbish at you..
Sorry that I am always the one talking rubbish..
While you have to take all my rubbish..
Ok, what I am writing now is pretty crappy.. Anw, thanks bro !

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Been thinking to myself..
To me, love is NOT unconditional..
Love, is conditional.. if not you'll be marrying pple that you don't love. If not, you will be treating your friends like shit.. Pple love you ofcourse you must love back isn't it.?? When pple who you love don't love you back don't you try to forget about them.?? So, rubbish if you tell me love is unconditional.. BULL SHIT HAO BU HAO !!

So, I've been thinking, am I loving the wrong person.?
Been thinking, if one day I am having a bad mooooood, who would I go to.??
I realise I couldn't go to that someone who always comes to me..
& I realise I would go to people who don't come to me..
So unfair to me & them ! I am willing to hear all your troubles, but when it comes to me getting troubled, i know fairly well that you cannot be counted on, & i know pretty well that you don't give a shit to my problems cus you are so self-centered ! I know all these, I know you treat me like shit, but yet I can't bear to reject you every time you come crying to me.. Why am I like this !!?! Unrequited love ?! Sigh..

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05082012
Anw, my family had the family day for the 2nd time in this year ! woohoo !
Awkward moment.. The moment the food came we all just gobble gobble.. Nobody spoke of anyth during the supper/dinner.. hahaha.. Its weird how we cannot communicate during eating.. I know I got a weird family lah.. Cny also don't have reunion dinner.. (i dont mind really) but the reason behind this is my parents' minimart opening hours.. But despite all these, I am pretty sure my family is okayy, like no dispute whatsoever.. haha, so dadaaaaaa, its just a weird household here. I still love my family ! <3


Happy birthday bingbongbiang ! my xiaodidi !

Since you didn't ask for present, I don't intend to give any..
haha, you know i love you, you know i care (:
Happy 16th ! I wish that you can grow up & be more mature (:
Even though I am not very mature myself, but you... still... FAR OFF FROM MATURE!
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Oh my, just saw this from facebook (:

Baby J'don so grown up & and lovely alr !
Handsome boyboy (: I've never seen him since like he was 1 year old..
Seeing him so happy, I am happy too, even though Idk what's with him nowadays (:
To grow up in an incomplete family, Idk how it feels, but I hope he doesn't feel much about that..
Glad to see his smiley pics (: So Qt (:
My nephew, will be my nephew (:

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PS: Afraid to take on the world :/

Loving you ~

Beautiful voices of the 3 sisters !

Featuring Mandi, Delvina & Amanda !

I think this is the best cover I can find on youtube..

Better than the original ~~

Needa skip the bloopers tho !! (._.)

Lovin' You - Minnie Riperton

Lovin' you is easy cause you're beautiful

Makin' love with you is all i wanna do

Lovin' you is more than just a dream come true

And everything that i do is out of lovin' you

La la la la la la la... do do do do do

No one else can make me feel

The colors that you bring

Stay with me while we grow old

And we will live each day in springtime

Cause lovin' you has made my life so beautiful

And every day my life is filled with lovin' you

Lovin' you i see your soul come shinin' through

And every time that we oooooh

I'm more in love with you

La la la la la la la... do do do do do

Do visit their blog too <3

Mandi; http://www.snowpeace28.blogspot.sg/

Delvina; http://www.delvinaa.blogspot.sg/

Amanda; http://www.hi-rainydays.blogspot.sg/

I like pweety boyboys! :P

Haha, was just talking to mom about korean HAWT guys !!!
So I decided to post this !!
Not posting those K-pop artiste like TVXQ etc etc...
TVXQ/DBSK IS MY GOD ALREADY, don't need to mention them luhh..
Always in my heart, always keeping the faith..

HYUN BIN !!!
*DROOLS DROOLS DROOLS*
This was how he looked when he acted in My Lovely Samsoon..
Its a frigging nice drama okay?! For me to say this.. It must be damn good.. cus me no watch korean drama dee okayy.?? :/ (No prejudice, I just think all their plots veh cliche..)
Anw, he was freaking cool in the show (:

Then now... Secret Garden..
More gheyy though...
Anw, I do think he went through plastic surgery, but bwehh, he still so handsome (:
(justmyopinion)

Next.. This guy.. Idk where he pop out from also..
Not a famous actor.. Didn't act in many shows either..
LEE JONG SUK ! 
But he is so darn cute cans?!
TADAAAAAA! A self taken photo, cuz i think this would not be photoshopped !
teeheehee, still so cute ^^

Now for some Japanese Anime..
Gakuen Aliceee ! The first anime that made me read Manga..
& thank god for iPhone app seriously !!! >_<
I had a hard time reading on my Mac .. -.-

Tsubasa !
Pretty sexy right .?! Hahaha..
A real gentlemen when I started watching the Anime (:

& Natsume ! (:
Cold yet warm guy (:
There... How he looked most of the time..
FIERCE !!! :/:/

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I've been dying to try false lashes..
So after some push from MeiTong I tried it ytd..
The effect was.... FAIL..

(WARNING! THOSE WHO DW TO SEE MY FACE CAN STOP SCROLLING!)

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I think the false lashes I bought was too.. Natural.??
Can't seem to see the effect on photos..
Or maybe photobooth just too lousy.. >_<
The effect can only be seen on the first photo ~_~

Sighh, I guess I will just try it the next time..