Photobomb of school life :-*

Just feel like bombing all the photozxc i took in school !!

With "BELOVED" Malineeeeee !

Cupcakes from Mr Looi ! Really delicious yo! <3

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Criminal Justice Conference @ NUS Faculty of Law:

hehe, too bored w christine pehhh !

Haha, FOREVER MAKING ME LAUGH! :D

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Polaroid bomb with yy's new polaroid ! TY YY ! <3

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& the cutest SL on earth graduating to the cruel world ! 

ALL THE BEST HAZIQAHH! :3

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& below are random photos that im lazy to place captions since pictures speaks a thousand words, i don't really need to, do i.??

PS: Not all hopes are lost (:

Credits to Delphine for the Hope Sweet ! <3

Life is not long

Life is not long..
Just realise that i will need to pursue a different route 24 months down the road..
It's not slow..
Just a few months,
Just a few days..

I never did anything that i regretted..
Truly, I believe that every experience i gained, good or bad, its all worth it..

& dearest Clement Cheeken is going to NS in like 2 weeks ?!
I will "try" to miss him lah hor.. Whenever i eat chicken.. XP
hahahaha... just let me joke for a few more moments....

PS: I can't even think of reasons to strike a conversation with you. Did you lost your worth to me.? I guess so. If I ever give in to thinking of holding on, it might be the first thing that i will regret in my life. So, I shan't do anyth about this. Please rot in loneliness for making me feel everything i'm feeling now.

Awesome

It's awesome when someone makes an effort to make you smile (:
It's so much better than someone who doesn't need to do anyth to make you smile !

Because it shows the true heart..

If someone makes no effort & you are already smiling,

then it might just be your one sided track of thoughts. 

The thing is:
you really think Effort = Work/Distance.??

Need some appreciation for my efforts too..

you are getting your formula wrong.. :(

Messy

This is how i feel now..
This is how i am now..
Messed up, screwed up, fucked up..

I don't know what to do anymore..
Why are humans so complicated.??
The simple me can never comprehend the complexity of humans' mind..

But i am thankful to friends who have been by me this whole while. hear my grumbles, hear my thoughts. Thank you...

One thing at a time...

Need to conquer one thing at a time..
No rush..
No hurry..
More haste, less speed..
& lastly, a great song for y'all ! :D

Patience - Take that


Just have a little patience
I'm still hurting from a love I lost
I'm feeling your frustration
Any minute all the pain will stop.

Just hold me close inside your arms tonight
Don't be too hard on my emotions.

'Cause I
Need time
My heart is numb, has no feeling
So while I'm still healing
Just try and have a little patience.

I really wanna start over again
I know you wanna be my salvation
The one that I can always depend.

I'll try to be strong
Believe me I'm trying to move on
It's complicated but understand me.


'Cause I
Need time
My heart is numb, has no feeling
So while I'm still healing
Just try and have a little patience
Have a little patience

'Cause the scars run so deep
It's been hard but I have to believe
Have a little patience [x2]


'Cause I
I just need time
My heart is numb, has no feeling
So while I'm still healing
Just try and have a little patience
Have a little patience


My heart is numb, has no feeling
So while I’m still healing
Just try and have a little patience

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PS: Patience is a virtue ~

Bracing myself to face the world..

Bracing myself to face this hectic weekend ahead of me..
Or rather it's weekend already..
Time check : 0347
Done BA tutorial & some Fam Law ~
But there is still a long way to go, long way ahead of me..
How much courage do i need to face the world.?
I don't want to be a museum ship that doesn't sail..
I wanna be the cruise that sail through all the oceans & all the seas~

Went to Criminal Justice Conference at NUS Faculty of Law today~
Even though i can't i say i paid my full attention there..
the whole thing truly inspire me..
Makes me think of which direction im heading..
There are so much, too much to do in this world..
you go into business, you go into law, you still have different kind of laws to choose from, then different firms, etc etc !

I know my gpa is suck. it is suck. pointless to talk about it..
But I do want to carve out a career for myself in the future.
Thats why i am working hard saving money & doing my best now.
You may say that my mind "open" later than others.. But since I am slow, then thats the best i could do now isnt it.? I can't turn back the time, go back to year 1 to study hard isn't it.?
But, i have faith, there's a way out (:

PS: There's Hope.

Thank you (:

First and foremost, thank you mommy!
我是很爱很爱你的！
I am sorry for making you worry on mother's day..
Last minute telling you imma working midnight & all those shet..
Sorry for making you angry on your birthday which is today :(
I am just so pissy luh.. :(
对不起，妈咪！！！
原谅我好吗？ (:
Mom was so angry when i wear slippers to restaurant... :(
But i was really pissed lah..
Overslept, miss lesson, bursary can't hand in, BOE no lab for me to do, water bottle leak till my whole bag & notes wet, ants attack, & realise my heels was spoilt only when i reach downstairs.. so imma so pissed that i just change into slippers...
Haiyooo... my bad my bad.. Mom hates it when i dont dress properly :(
I want you to be happy & healthy too !
Love you mummy ! xoxo ! :3

k, i look damn cui here.. still in bun after work :(

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Now, thank god ?

Imma glad that you came (:

谢谢你们给我的一切，我感激不尽，感谢上天，让我了解，就算我倒下，还有人让我靠一靠（：

hehe, so cheesy.. But i wanna thank god for letting me met all my friends ^^

On a side note, Mandi & Samantha just helped me solved a major problem of the week!

Had been thinking about this issue for almost a week ! xie xie !

& I didn't have the chance to bring this up to pple, or that some pple are too immerse in their own problems to care about mine.. sighh..

Cus for the past 2 weeks, i had been helping ppl to solve their probs too :|

So i guess i need to thank Najiha & Cassandra tooo ^^ 

& as you guys know, ive been sleeping very little for the past 2 weeks..

Thank you Meitong, Clement & Rongrong for helping to wake me up (:

hehehehe ^^ I know its not that easy !!!  :(

& My mommy too ! She also "tries" to wake me up !

& Rax's snorlax snores !!! HAHAHAHA ! CHAO SI WO LE ! :DD

Thanks to Cherie, Euroy, Chan, WC, Gib, Melvyn, Mal, George, Chris, Nixin, XiaoXin, Kevin, vernesa.. etc etc for making my life in school so TROLLOLOLOL ! 

Seriously, i want to upload Kevin's mother's day present here.. But, sua, don't wanna spoil his image.. LOL.. LITERALLY MADE ME LOL LOL LOL ! ROFL !

hehehe ^^ GOOD PEOPLE !!! 

All my year1's friends plus year2's friends! :3

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"BABIES, YOU LIGHT UP MY WORLD LIKE NOBARDY ELSE, THE WAY THAT YOU DIG YOUR NOSE GETS ME OVERWHELMED, THE WAY THAT YOU DIG YOUR NOSE IS AINT HARD TO TELL, YOU DON'T KNOW OHHO OHHH THAT'S WHAT MAKES YOU BEAUTIFOOL"

HAHAHAHA!

MY B2LO2 JOKERS !

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Also, thank you my OHS friends for everything..

we all easy come easy go there..

But we are all friends !

BILGUN IS COMING BACK TO SINGAPORE!

BEST NEWS YOOOHOOOOO !

All those that are going back to their hometown !
Take care & all the best !

My first workplace. NOT BAD YOO !

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& lastly, not to forget my BADMINTON TEAM!

Hehe, storytelling sessions!

all of us, so different in nature, how did we even come together?

hmm.. (:

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PS: I LOVE YOU <3

Care

I still care,
& I care too much :'(

SHAGGG !!

MeLVyNSiMjW @SMbeyondbluesky lol dun use the word "shag" lah! It means tired after having sex :P 11 05 12 4:43 PM

I DON'T CARE AR MELVYN SIM TROLLOLOLOL ! 
I VERY TIRED AR !

OK, time check, 0929.
At JR SAFRA working alr !
Since today is Mother's day, I hope a lot of people go out & celebrate & don't come gym today (:
Then it's gonna be a slack slack day! *WINK WINK*

& Im waiting for Keith to finish his prata now so that i can have mine!!!
HUNGRYYYY ~ !

Ok, i am kinda proud of myself..
10 days since I last slept well ..
Ok, maybe it shouldn't be something i should be proud of..
Since 3rd May.. everyday like 5-6h of sleep :(
Sighh & I am working midnight today !!
Luckily tml no school.. if i am like super tired then i shall just camp at home tml !

Where are the days when I sleep like 10h a day :(

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Enough of complaining, I chose it myself, no regrets -.-
Had a great week in school though!
nomz at sakae with euroy & cherie on fri ! NICE ! ^^
Then nomz at Ishi Mura w bubu ytd before both of us accompany euroy to eat his supper at 302 ! ^^
Jap food FTW !! :D
Ok, so i eat eat eat & eat again luh ..
hahahhaha ! PRATAAA! I M COMING !!
& hope tonight's mothers' day celebration's nomz nomz will be DAEBAK! ^^

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Got a lot of homework this week though..
BA got a lot !! :(
Hope I can finish shitty BA by today!
Off I go ~
If you're hoping for emo stuffs in this post, you're gonna be dissapointed..
HAHAHAHA !
Cus i am not used to having people aorund when i blog..
feel exposed !

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I've been thinking a lot these few days..
Not emo stuffs.. -.-
But rather how to handle my workload..
How to balance my life between family. friends, school & work..

Working at TM SAFRA seems like a bad decision.
I am not going to get personal. but its just that i can't commit there.
I don't want to work weekends there. but it seems that the full time needs pple during weekends.
Tampines is not near to choa chu kang ok.. -.-
So.. I had thought hard & long about this.
I am going to quit TM SAFRA. & just focus on JR SAFRA.
Which is much nearer to my house & in need of people right now.

Orange Clove got good pay, but rare events.?!
So it's definitely out of the ques...
OHS.? For my holidays? ^^
I still need a bit more time to think about this..
because anw i still need to be a good girl & finish TM SAFRA this month.. T_T

PS: I told myself to throw away all redundant stuffs and focus on what I should want. But what have I been doing, really.? Actions speaks totally otherwise :(

& lastly, Happy Mother's Day !
I needa dedicate a post to my greatest mom ! :33

You can't lose someone you never had

From WeiChiat's blog (:

Found this really meaningful & quite true (:

If someone never did trust you, how can you say you lost their trust.?
If someone never treated you as a friend, you can't say they left you..

所以不要一厢情愿，因为不是你的，永远都不是你的。
不要因为那些不是你的东西而哭泣。

I've got so much to say...

Ok, i really need to blog !
So much things to say !!!!

Ok, eat eat eat !
Been eating so much like a pig these few days..
Worse still.. Going w caffeine for like 4 days !
Twice a day some more !
Today's gonna be my last day I depend on sugar yooo!
Gnna sleep after blogging ^^

& yeah, we got a badass here..
Ponteng contract law lecture today :(
& My clothes' basket like a mountain liao luhh !!!
I promise to wash clothes tml kay ? :(

Sometimes i really wish I could sleep lesser..
Or even maybe like normal pple!
like maybe 6-7h a day??
Ive got friends who really can does that okay?!
But I can't.. my whole body will dysfunction if I don't get enough sleep!
I gonna give myself a whole 8h sleep today ! :D

& I AM SO TIRED CUS OF STUPID GRAND HYATT !
OMG THE THE THE STUPID WOMAN FCKING STUPID!
neh minnddddd.. Service staff there are really nice thoughhh XP
But, no matter what, imma not going back again...
Feel so cheated my pehlayping btw -.-
Released us at 11.40. Thank god, ohs got transport home ! :D

Question: DO I LOOK LIKE I FRIGGING IMMATURE/UNDERAGED?!
remember how i went outside catering & this photographer thought i was sec1 or sec2..
Then ytd when i told my partner i was 18, HE GOT A SHOCK OF HIS LIFE ! He told me her thought I am 15 or the most 16 only ~~ KAOOOOO ~
Ok, i know it's good to look young.. but i am quite sure its not because of my looks. i think? With a bun & fringe clipped up, how can i look kiddish at the same time yoo?!

haha enough about workkkkk !

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3rd week into year2.. I feel the stress alr !
Fam law pbl, contract law pbl ! wahhhhhhhhhhh!!!
But I've great classmates who are so hilarious!

Just look at how childish WeiChiat & Gibson is ! :P

& i've got friends who keeps me alive ! Really ! 

but............

Thanks to my own dk what........

pple, LOVE to troll me wherever i go !

Even my year 2 classmates starting to troll me alr !

& Chan continuous defamation just made it worst !

I'm sorry that I killjoy luhh ! Sorry that i don't uds certain jokes, or maybe all of them !

I can't help it. Really.

Known to be gullible and naive to my friends..

Got no idea/clue whats going on at some crucial moments..

Sometimes speaks at a totally wrong timing..

LIKE A FREAKING RETARD !

Where is my disciple, CONAN TAN ! Save me..

haha, whenever he's around, he will be the target instead of me! (:

Best evidence:

Maybe I am deemed to be #forevertrollingtarget.

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I wanted to post a lot of stuffs ! But now ! I am having a mind block ! Shit !

Oh yah, AVENGERS!

Haha, it will be more more more awesome if i had not been so drowsy !

But yeah, it's awesome alr, i wanna catch battleship badly though....

but th #foreveralone me got nobody to go w me la !

Most importantly,

How long has it been, for laughters to ring like this :D

& HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO CONAN TAN !! :D
"HAM SUM BOY ! "

A YURI A YEAR MAKES HIM HAPPY ALL YEAR ! HAHAHA!
Thanks for always being so gullible ! Even to me !
hahahahaha!

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From having to push her cus she can't reach the paddle, to this. cycling on her own alr !

She has grown so much !
baby girl, Jovie Chan Xuan Qi !
Please don't be such a nuisance at this 3 year old age..
I am beginning to tak boleh tahan her alr !!!!

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Ok, shall not blog any longer, really mind blocked alr.. till next time ya !
A blondie photo to end this post !
Thanks Vernesa for the wig yoooooooooo ~ ! XD
Georgina looks like a mermaid in it :D

My face so red that day due to the heat !! :D
& the hotness from Georgy ! Maybe?? hmm~

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PS: I hope everything goes well for everyone, please stay healthy ! So many pple falling sick now ! FIGHTING !!!

是不是这里，已经没有你留下来的理由了？
Anw, Tianyi, MrSky, left for his hometown China without even saying goodbye :( even though i find him realy noisy & irritating.. Its weird thinking that I will never be able to see him again.. BIAO JIEEE~ The way he calls me that ! LOL !

Very afraid, even rong rong is leaving soon. I wanna be prepared. I keep on asking louis when he leavin, he say i shooing him away from sg.. I just wanna be prepared !!!!

害怕失去～

The boy with the mind of a 81 :P

Happy 18th birthday ! 

Or 81st.?!

Happy birthday to the wise old man ! ^^

Thanks for everything that you helped me ^^

& hope you enjoyed your day & have a blast !! XD

PS: Sorry that I stumbled on your birthday even though you seems to not want anybody to know :P

May May be a beautiful month <3

"May may be a beautiful month"
Spot the difference b/w e meanings in the 2 similar sentences?

Anw i heard the holy bell this noon.. haha. i always like to hear it ^^
April had been fine really.. Now its for may to come !!

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Ink corn see the red peep per !
I hate them !

& I hate when people lie about how they feel.. dang !
What you do & what you say are always different & doesn't even make sense.?! Can you like speak truthfully for once.? Stop lying to me will you.?? All those promises you made, all those bootlicking words you said.. FULL OF CRAP ! I love you, I miss you, I wanna go out w you, I wanna accompany you.. PUI ! PUI PUI PUI ! hmph !
Ridiculous & unreasonable..
I can't reason w you anymore..
Sighh...

请自重！

No promises :/

诺不轻信，故人不负我；诺不轻许，故我不负人。

Basically what this cheam cheena sentence abv means:
If you don't make promises recklessly, you won't disappoint me,
if I don't make promises easily, I won't disappoint you...

Find it really true to a large extent..

Lies, this whole world is full of lies..
Too many examples in this world..

How many times you said that you're gonna stop buying cigarettes.?
How many times you said tt you were gonna quit smoking.?
How many times you promised to stop gambling.?
How many times you promised to stop drinking.?
How many times you swear to stop swearing.?
How many times were you late for meet ups.?

How many lies you said to yourself.??

SMbeyondbluesky RT @ChineseLQuotes: 我们总喜欢去验证别人对我们许下的诺言，却很少去验证自己给自己许下的诺言。

We always like to make sure people keep their promises..
why haven't you see the stats of you keeping promises uh.?

PS: but then again, if you kept your side of the bargain, won't you like the other party to keep their promise too.??

Y U RAGE?!?!?!

Smth from facebook which i think is really meaningful (:

"Why We Shout In Anger"

A Hindu saint who was visiting river Ganges to take bath found a group of family members on the banks, shouting in anger at each other. He turned to his disciples smiled 'n asked.

'Why do people shout in anger shout at each other?'

Disciples thought for a while, one of them said, 'Because we lose our calm, we shout.'

'But, why should you shout when the other person is just next to you? You can as well tell him what you have to say in a soft manner.' asked the saint

Disciples gave some other answers but none satisfied the other disciples.

Finally the saint explained, .

'When two people are angry at each other, their hearts distance a lot. To cover that distance they must shout to be able to hear each other. The angrier they are, the stronger they will have to shout to hear each other to cover that great distance.

What happens when two people fall in love? They don't shout at each other but talk softly, Because their hearts are very close. The distance between them is either nonexistent or very small...'

The saint continued, 'When they love each other even more, what happens? They do not speak, only whisper 'n they get even closer to each other in their love. Finally they even need not whisper, they only look at each other 'n that's all. That is how close two people are when they love each other.'

He looked at his disciples 'n said.

'So when you argue do not let your hearts get distant, Do not say words that distance each other more, Or else there will come a day when the distance is so great that you will not find the path to return.'

Let's not put in any more distance between us, enough is enough.. I am not going to rage at you any longer.. Cus I really do care :( but, one hand isn't enough to clap.. Will you spare a thought for me too?

I know it's hard to remember, the people we used to be. ♥

Post title, quoted from Nathaniel Low as a caption from our group photo..

Found it really heartwarming & beautiful :-*

Happy birthday to kevin leonggg llamaaa ~ !!! XDD

Really laughed my ass off at those horny & biantai talks of ong qin he ! EDISON ONG!

Maybe he as horny as Edison Chen !! :P

Had a great time w all these ppl, & no matter what happens in the future, i wish them all the best & hope that they will all have a bright bright BRIGHT future ahead !! 

The six ladies !

Till next time yooo ~ !

I didnt realise how much i miss them till i see them !

xoxo hugs & kisses! Muakks!

Have boyfriend or not, we still love one another a lot !

Thats till now what i think.. haha maybe some one will turn bad though?? hmm! HOPE NOT!

& yeahh, totally cold shoulders w sixian before this meet up! luckily some friends gave me the courage to talk it out w her ! :D tyvm !

B1L04 !!! xoxo

Ok, dk why this pic over here so blur though :(

We asked security guard to help us take this photooo (:

I alr start to miss them after one week of school ~ seriously :(

KEVINNY & GEORGINNY PLEASE LAST LONGGG ! :D

sweethearts ! 

All the precious pple to me (:

Good life, good life, I do have good life don't I.? ^^

PS: Can't wait for band concert day :D

& lastly, some wise words

"If you always do something with some form of reciprocation in mind, it will always be conditional. That will never lead to happiness because of expectations."

I wanna grow, grow, grow !

Why do i still feel like a kid.?
Why can't i grow up.?

i really feel damn childish..
not being discipline & taking up responsibilities that i should take..
I feel so sucky some times..
but i just continue to lay on the bed & procrastinate >_< ( like now )

Not doing my job as a student to study well..
Not doing my job to learn how to cook.?! seriously! This part of me! I really dk how ppl look at their parents cook then they will help all that.. i just sit on the sofa and wait for my meal.. kitchen... NOT MY PLACE!
i don't even know how to cook rice or porridge -.-

& my sense of direction. I have no motivation to look at the road names when dad drives. i just like to stone, listen to songs, play w my phone on car.. >_<

Never help to do housework other than sweeping & mopping the floor, packing my room & sometimes washing of clothes >_<
what a bad girl i am...
bahahhahahaa...
I want to help.. I need a change.. but where do i start from.? >_<

i am always at the mode of: lazy song
Today i don't feel like doing anything,
i just wanna lay in my bed..
wuu wuu wuu ~

its time for me to grow up, but why can't i.?

ps: thank god quarrel solved.. but.. 一波未平，一波又起~ sighh..

The Time to Think

I need the time to think.
The time to think how to type out my feelings.
The time to calm myself down best before sunday.
The time to construct a sensible message that can portray my feelings correctly to be sent to you.
The time to think about how to salvage this situation.

But I've got NO TIME.
I am definitely no in the right mind now....
Going to work in the morning tml..
Then going to teach tuition..
Reaching home only to have to prepare my stuff for the day camp on Sat..
Need to reach school by 0745.. WOOHOOOO~!
& i've got no idea what time the camp will end..
& working in the morning on Sunday.......

How do I find the time before I have to face you on sun evening.?
I got no idea..
I can type so many things now..
But I am very sure, I am not in the right state to type that particular message now isn't it.?
Sighh......
我到底该怎么做？

俗话说的好：

Don't promise when you're happy, Don't reply when you're angry, and don't decide when you're sad.

I guess I replied while I was angry..
& since I am sad now, I shouldn't make decision that will just make things worse.. -.-

I really hate tensions & quarrels at such a bad timing..
No amount of sorry can cure this unless both of us really mean it & admit our wrong..
But even if i admit.. will you.?

PS: I hate selfish + inconsiderate + spoilt brats _|_

对得起自己吗？

Some things yes, some things no.

Screwed mode.
Idk what to do.
Idk how to salvage this situation.

I am not that independent at all !
I need help some times too !
But you guys doesn't seems to know !!

I think i gotta face that fact that no one will be helping me through this phase.. How much i wish i can run away from here, run away from all the troubles, run away from all the burdens..

To you, I guess I'm really not important.. Its a cruel hard fact whenever i realise i'm not important to people who i think is important to me.. this sucks big time..

I hate this realisation.
so no one shall be important to me anymore.. no one.. no one can break me ever again.. all of you are just a passer-by.

I got no energy to do this now. I'm sorry for what i said. but i still think you're wrong too. I dowan to be so fake to just tell you sorry when i don't mean it.. i guess you won't see this.. but, yah, i'm not important anyway.. I don't want to spoil your day this sunday.. I alr said on whatsapp.. if they didn't take me seriously... i also got no idea what to do.. I need time to figure out how much do i mean to you..

ps: how i wish i could be so selfish too.. enough is enough.. i am very tired, really tired.. & you don't seem to give a fuck about the situation.. so why am i bothering so much?? tell me why.? or is it just that i'm blind too. wished you were here to tell me you know.?

National Kiss Day :3

Yay, kiss your lover,
kiss your mother,
kiss your father,
kiss your brother,
kiss your sister !

ok, whatever..
i believe that even if there is no such occasion, its okay to kiss your love ones!!! :DD

Grab them yooo~!
& if u can, kiss your ass! :P

After all, Friday the 13th isn't that bad at all (: